Look Into My Eyes

Chapter 4: Behind Closed Doors

It had been one week after the power incident, and Kaminari was still mad at himself for it. It was noticeable that Denki's mood had changed, and his classmates were very worried for him. He was very gloomy and didn't talk unless someone asked him something. Class 1-A's efforts of cheering him up were no good, and Kaminari got worse. Every time someone tried to make him happy, the voice spoke.

"Look at that. They're pitying you."

One day, Denki stopped coming to school.

He never went home or anything, he just stayed in his dorm. Everyday he would break down and start cutting again. Not that anyone knew. The blonde continued to wear long sleeves everyday despite the weather being hot. He would also always do it during classes when no one was around.

Denki wanted to stop but... he didn't. It just felt so great. Like no one would ever have to deal with him ever again. Sometimes Kaminari would find himself crying on the floor, or throwing up in the toilet, and it just made him feel more weak.

His classmates would visit him after school, and sometimes he would put a fake or half-hearted smile. Izuku and Kirishima were the ones most worried about him, and would visit him more than the others.

"Guys it's ok I'm fine you don't need to worry about me." Denki lied. He would never reach out to anyone because the voice told him not to do it. There were already so many cuts on his arm that he gave up ever trying to count them.

Izuku and Eijiro tried to find out what happened to the happy Pikachu, but never got close to figuring it out.

Deku couldn't take it anymore. He wanted his friend to be ok. He tapped Kirishima on the shoulder.

"Kirishima I'm going to go check on Denki before class, do you want to come?" Izuku asked.

"Yeah but I have to do some last minute homework. Just go ahead of me." Kirishima said. Deku nodded and ran to the dorms. When he got there he knocked on the door.

"Kaminari~kun, are you in there?" Silence. Izuku opened the door to reveal the room. There were pillows and blankets all over the room, and Deku thought he saw... blood? There was one sharp object on the floor that Izuku noticed, and he got scared.

"Did a villain break in and attack him?" Deku thought to himself. He cautiously walks over to the bathroom. The light was on, but the door was cracked open a little. Izuku slowly opens the door and sees Kaminari cutting a slit on his arm. Denki sees him and without thinking, throws the blade behind him and rolls up his sleeve.

"Midoriya, it's not what it looks like!" Kaminari says.

"Denki what are you doing?!" Deku asks shocked. Kaminari looks at his feet then at Deku.

"Would you believe me if I said nothing?"

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"Izuku you don't have to go this far." Kaminari was currently tied to a chair by Deku, and the green haired boy was searching for any razors or anything sharp.

"No. I don't trust you to hide anything while I'm getting things. Now give me the one in your pocket." Denki grumbles and hands it over. Izuku keeps looking for the sharp objects. He searches the bathroom and find ms a bunch of razors.

"Cheez-its Denki, how many razors do you have? Actually don't answer that." Deku says. He also takes Kaminari's scissors away.

"Wha- hey! I need those!" Denki says.

"Kaminari, I don't trust you with anything sharp! I'm taking them." Once Deku is done, he  unties Denki. Kaminari doesn't face Deku, he just looks down.

"You think I'm a freak or something now don't you?" Denki asks. Izuku looks surprised.

"What? No of course not! It's just... why would you do this?" Kaminari looks away. Deku sighs.

"Denki you know I have to tell someone." The blonde looks at Izuku, scared.

"No no Midoriya please don't! They're all going to hate me and-" Deku cut him off.

"We won't be mad. We're just worried for you. It's not good to continue this Kaminari, you could die!" Denki kept pleading with the green haired boy.

"Please! I'll stop I'll keep hanging out with you guys I'll come back to class just don't say anything!" Kaminari looked like he was going to breakdown. Deku felt bad and gave in. He sighed.

"Ok, fine." Izuku said reluctantly. "But you have to tell me why you did this."

Now it was Kaminari's turn to sigh.

"Ok..I guess. Well, I was confused about my feelings for someone." Deku looked at him.

"That's all? Why didn't you just tell me-" Denki interrupted him.

"No it's not that." Kaminari looked away.

"I... might be gay." Denki looked away.

"Ok who is it?" Deku asked.

"Wait you're not disgusted?" Kaminari asked.

"No where do you keep getting these ideas?" Deku asked.

"Well someone told me it was wrong to be gay and that you would go to hell." He simply replied.

"Oh well we support you." Izuku said smiling.

"Yeah... "Denki trailed off, looking gloomy again.

"Hey cheer up what's wrong?" Deku asks, concerned again. Then out of nowhere, Kaminari starts crying.

"Omg I'm sorry did I do something?" Izuku asks.

"No no it's not that it's just that, I like a guy that would never like me back. I mean we're best bros our friendship would fall apart." Denki said. Deku smiled.

"Ok come on." The green haired boy says. Kaminari looks at him confused.

"Where are we going?"

"You said that if I don't tell anyone, you'll come to classes again." Kaminari bit his lip.

"Ok fine."