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A horn honked outside my house as I quickly ate my cereal "hey dad I gotta go" I stood up and grabbed my sweatshirt, throwing it over my head.

My dad ended up taking my bowl off the table and putting it in the dishwasher. "What? I thought I was bringing you to school?" I shook my head and walked over to him."a friend offered to bring me to school today."

He laughed a bit"already? But it's only your second day!" I chuckled and sent him a huge smile"I know!" I went to go grab my bag by the door when he said"(Y/n).." I turned around"ya da-" he cut me off with a hug"I'm so proud of you, your making a huge improvement, and hey! You actually made some friends!" I laughed and rolled my eyes as the sound of a car horn could be heard but it was longer this time.

"Alright dad I really gotta go" he broke the hug"bye (Y/n/n)" I chuckled and shook my head"bye dad" I said as I grabbed my bag and walked out the door.

I ran up to the car door and opened it only to find him smoking. "You smoke?" I asked as he widened his eyes at me, I just chuckled and hopped in the car. He took the cigar out of his mouth and responded with"Only here and there, I try not to make it a huge deal"

I nodded my head as he put the cigar back in his mouth and started the car. His window was rolled down as he drove causing his hair to fly off to the side. I stared at him for a bit watching how serious he looks when he drives, his lips turned to a slight frown, his eyes narrowed a bit and his eyebrows furrowed together in concentration. I looked away as heat rose to my cheeks, I rolled my eyes at myself and shoved my hands in my pockets while looking out the window.

The car ride was silent, because of the cigar in his mouth he couldn't really talk, he took it out to blow the smoke out here and there, but other than that he didn't try to talk to me.

Once we got to the school he opened the door and got out as I followed close behind. He ended up locking the car behind him while walking away. Before we walked into school he stomped on what was left of the cigar and threw it away. "How long have you been doing that for?" He shrugged"since last year, the school is pretty stupid, you could do anything and get away with it basically" he sent a wink my way right after as I blushed a bit and rolled my eyes.

We soon found the group talking around a bunch of lockers"Hey guys" I smiled and waved at them they all said there hello's back and to Tord as well. We all talked a bit before the bell rang"Hey I have to get some stuff from my locker, I'll see you guys in class" Tom nodded his head as Matilda said"Alright, see you then!"

I made my way to my locker, it was only a hallway or so, away, once I got to it I noticed Eliana and her group at the end of the hallway. I sighed and thought to myself 'don't notice me, don't notice me' as I opened my locker the front of my face ended up getting slammed into the lockers beside me. 'Well shit.' I thought as I got turned around"who the fuck do you think you are?!" I chuckled a bit "I don't know, depends who I'm talking too" she glared at me and shoved me into the lockers behind me. "Don't. Push. Me." I spat at her, venom lacing each word.

"Or what? What are you gonna do?"

I stayed quiet, not wanting to ruin my life again.

"That's right, you aren't gonna do shit, because your a worthless. Weak. Little piece of shit."

That trigged my instincts, as I swiped my foot under two of her henchmen making them fall, I grabbed Marty and threw her against the lockers. I then took a hold of Eliana's shirt and held her against the lockers, my other hand made a fist, I was about to punch her as I said"Do you know who the fuck I am?! You better watch you tongue or-" before I could do anything the bell rang.

I shook my head a bit and let go of Eliana, as I started to clench and unclench my fists. I quickly went over to my open locker, grabbed what I needed, slammed it shut and walked off to class. Memories swarmed throughout my head.

' you killed those people, you were the only one there that night, this is bullshit you should be in jail!'

'You want to know what I think? I think she's a fucked up excuse for a child! She killed her brother, my son and she expects to get away with it. Now tell me your honor isn't that the most fucked up shit to do?!'

'How the hell do you even sleep at night? Your a fucking monster.'

'if you even step out of line once you will be expelled.'

'New me'

I stopped as I reached the door to the classroom, my hands were shaking as I put them in my pockets.

'get a grip (Y/n)'

I shook my head and opened the door to see that class hasn't started yet.

'stop acting on instinct'

I walked over to my seat and sat down next to Tord as he sent a smirk my way, I didn't do anything and stayed silent.

'If they want to beat you up let them'

The teacher started to talk as I fixed the beanie on my head and held my pencil tightly in my hand.

'You deserve it...'