Banned (A Louis Tomlinson AU love story)

Chapter 13

Louis was pressed up against some other girl, kissing her. He was kissing her the way he always kissed me. And it made my heart break even more.

"Oh Louis," she moaned. That...that right there just got my blood boiling. NOBODY was allowed to say his name like that.

I went over to them, pulling louis off of her and just started pounding the shit out of her. I hit her harder and faster than I thought possible.

"Alicia stop," Louis shouted. So I did. She ran away as best she could. Probably to tell the principal.

"Why would you do that?!?!" I yelled, my tears flowing down my face hot and heavy.

"Because we're not together!!!"

"You obviously don't love me like you said because if you did, you wouldn't have moved on so quickly," I whispered. I ran out of the school and to my car, fumbling with my keys.

"You're saying I don't love you?! You're the one who stopped me before I could even do anything!!"

"Because I saw the way you looked at me. I saw the way your eyes were dark," I said before getting in my car. He got in too. I knew he wouldn't get out so I just drove off school property.

"Do you not know that I'm gonna look at you like that for the rest of my life? Do you not know that for the rest of my life I'm going to want to prove how much I love you?"

"Oh yeah, and kissing someone else the way you kiss me is the perfect way to do that."

"That's not the way I kiss you," he said.

"Yeah, it is."

"No, it isn't. When I kiss you, I put every ounce of my being into it. I put love into it. I make myself vulnerable to you. That slut I was kissing, I was kissing her because I knew you would get angry. I put nothing into it, I got nothing out of it. In fact I need to boil my lips."

"Don't forget the tongue," I grumbled.

"I didn't even use that. Every good part of everything I have to offer is specifically for you. You were ignoring me all weekend. I was trying to call to apologise and you weren't answering. I needed something to get you angry so you would talk to me so I could apologise and tell you I love you. I don't care if you never want to make love to me. I just couldn't have you mad at me. I couldn't completely give up on loving you."

I didn't know if I should let all of this sink in. I knew that if I let it sink in, I would believe it. And I didn't want to believe it. I didn't want to believe that I spent the whole weekend crying because I was too damn stubborn.

"Don't lie to me," I whispered.

"I'm not!! Why can't you believe that I love you?!? Why do you have to be such a hard head?!?"

"Why do you shout all the time?! Why can't you ever have a rational discussion with someone?!?"

He took a deep breath. He ran his hands through his hair, gripping it tightly. "Damn it Ali why do you have to make everything so complicated? I love you, plain and simple. I was just snogging that whore to get you jealous. I didn't even start until I saw you coming."

"If you wanted me to listen to what you had to say, there were easier ways to do that."

"How? You wouldn't answer my calls or my texts. I went to your house and your mother said that you weren't home even though your car was in the driveway. When Lottie went over there to check on you, you shut yourself in your room until she agreed to not talk about me."

"You could've talked to me during chemistry. Then I would've had to listen since we're lab partners."

"You would've asked for a different partner," he said.

"I hate how you know me so well," I mumbled.

"I hate how stubborn you are."

"You said you loved how stubborn I am."

"I did until you started being stubborn with me. Now it's just aggravating me."

"Me me me that's all I ever fucking hear come out of your mouth," I said even though it was complete bull.

"Correction, that's the only part you pay attention to. You don't think you deserve positive attention so when someone is talking, you only pay attention to what they say about themselves," he retorted.

I couldn't even attempt to deny this. He was right. All of my life I've never been treated what people count as well so when I'm complimented I don't pay attention. I don't pay attention because when I hear positive things I don't think that they're about me.

"Pull into this lot," he told me gently. So me being me, I pulled into it. "Get out." And what did I do? I got out.

Almost as soon as I got out he was already in front of me. I refused to meet his gaze with mine. I just looked down, even though the only view I got was of the top of my boobs.

He forced me to look him in the eyes though. "Ali, I love you. I love you so much it hurts. It hurts me when I think of you when you're away from me. It hurts to think that there's a possibility I won't have a future with you. It hurts to know that you could very simply get into your car right now and drive off, get your schedule changed, and never see me again. But I'll take all of that pain because I'm not gonna ever stop loving you," he whispered, resting his forehead on mine.

"When did you get so damn sappy?" I joked, trying to laugh but failing miserably. He wiped the tears that were falling from my eyes.

"Don't give up on us because I'm not smart enough to do what I should do."

"It's not what you didn't do. It's the fact that you can't accept that I don't want to have sex yet."

That wasn't all true. I did want to commit myself to Louis but I couldn't. I couldn't risk something happening and me getting pregnant.

"I'll wait as long as I have to. I just don't want to lose you."

"You have to understand that you can't do this again. You can't act like a baby when you don't get your way. You can't just run away from me and not talk to me when I try to talk to you." He opened his mouth to say something but I didn't let him speak. "I didn't purposely ignore your calls and texts. My phone died while I was crying. I didn't want to talk about you with Lottie. I didn't want to talk to anybody really. When my dad got home, I completely ignored him. Of course that's for multiple reasons but still. I didn't even eat."

"Baby I'm so sorry."

"Just please come back. Be the Louis I fell in love with. Don't be the Louis that everyone thinks you are," I whispered before kissing him.

HNo matter what mistakes he makes, I will always love him.

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