Last Night

Chapter 1

Hi, I’m Mackenzie Fuller.

I’m 14 and in love with my best friend.

I was diagnosed with Severe Depression and Melancholia when I was 12.

I had 2 best friends at the time, and 1 of them, Molly, was jealous of Luke. Who had been my best friend since I was born. On the first day of prep Luke wasn’t there. So I was just sitting by myself on a wooden bench. When this girl that everybody wanted to talk to came over to me and told me I was the prettiest girl she had ever seen. We became best of friends. And When Luke finally moved to my school in Grade 3, she started to get jealous. I didn’t notice it then but I see it now. I kind of just ditched her when Luke came. I didn’t mean to, but I was just so excited that Luke was in my class. In Grade 4 Molly couldn’t stand it anymore. She was so jealous that she told everyone that I had cooties. And I know it seems ridiculous. But it was the most horrible thing she could have said then. And she said it. Even Luke wouldn’t come near me. He was afraid he would catch and nobody would talk to him. I was devastated. Luke finally figured out that I didn’t have cooties. And started talking to me again. He didn’t even apologise for just ditching me. But I had missed him so much that I kind of forgot about it. By grade 6 everybody had forgotten why they hated me. So they just kept hating me, and that’s when Luke figured out something was wrong. I told Luke everything. And he told me everything. But I stopped telling him everything. And he was really worried that I was sick because I wouldn’t speak unless absolutely necessary, like to say hi and bye.

Last year Luke and I were in year 7 and the whole year level, including the teachers, thought that we were going out. Luke had no trouble making new friends but I was a bit hesitant around new people because of Molly. Luke decided that he would make new friends for me, because I sucked at it. He introduced me to his friend’s cousin Madi. She was a bitch. He then introduced me to this girl he liked. He wanted me to get to know her and find out who she liked. That relationship lasted 2 days. He kind of gave up after that, and just let me hang out with him. His friends didn’t like me until they found out I could actually play basketball. They were extremely surprised when Luke suggested we played King* and picked me to be on his team. Calum went with Sebastian and Ashton went with Michael.  We played Calum and Sebastian first. Calum was on me and when he threw me the ball he told me not to worry and that he’d go easy on me. Luke just laughed and told him not to worry and asked me to go easy on him. Since I had no friends except for Luke, I had a lot of time to do stuff, so I spent that time Practising Dance and Basketball. Which meant I was really good. Calum nearly pissed himself when Luke asked me to go easy on him. While Calum was recovering from his fit of Laughter I shot the ball straight in the hoop. Calum was so confused.

“Did she just get a 3 pointer in?” he asked shocked.

“SWISH” Luke shouted and then laughed. Basketball was one of the only things I was better than him at.

We played Ashton and Michael next. They realised I was better than they originally thought, and they weren’t holding back. It was still too easy, they passed the ball to Luke and he pretended to shoot but actually passed the ball to me and I shot it straight in the hoop. No problems.

“Geesh.” Calum stated, clearly surprised. “I want to be on Mackenzie’s team!” He pouted. Luke just laughed and said that he wasn’t sharing. I went red when he said that. And I realised I didn’t want to share either.

“Why don’t we play 1 on 1, then I can kick all of your asses, including you” I said as I pointed at Luke. They all agreed and like I said, I kicked all off their asses. Calum was so angry that he got beat by a girl, and didn’t talk to anyone for the rest of the day. Ashton asked the boys if they wanted to go over and they all said yes. That hurt. It was Thursday. Luke and I always had a sleep over on Thursdays.  I shrugged, it was just one night right? It’s not like I hadn’t bailed on him before. He knows that dance comes first. Well actually our friendship comes first but if we have something planned and I have a dance practise or rehearsal pop up I usually go. Dance is like my friend. And his friend wants to spend time with him tonight.

That was the first night that I cut myself. I wasn’t upset that Luke had bailed. I was fine with that. It was just everything. It was Molly telling everybody I had cooties. It was everybody forgetting why they hated me but continuing to hate me. It was my dad leaving and my mum getting sick. It was everything. When I got home I walked up to my room with tears threatening to spill out, my brother was home so I ran up the stairs and slammed, then locked my door. I slammed the door so hard that a photo frame fell off of the wall and cracked. I was so upset that when I was cleaning up the mess I put one shard of glass on my bed. The photo frame had a picture of Luke and I when we were about 4 Hugging. I cried as I looked at the photo and looked around to my bed where the shard of glass was sitting. I heard the front door open and shut and assumed that Nick had gone out somewhere with his friends.

I brought the glass down to my wrist and sliced I sat there crying for about 15 minutes and eventually fell asleep. Mum was in the hospital, and I don’t think Nick even knew that I was there last night; I was supposed to be at Luke’s, so he probably stayed at a friend’s house. I woke up at 10.30 and decided I wasn’t going to go to school. I texted mum and told her I had overslept and she texted back

‘Just stay home.

Maybe come visit me? x’ - MUM

I told her that I’d come around lunchtime and decided I should probably get ready, since it takes half an hour to get to the hospital on the bus. I showered and got ready, I wore my black distressed high waisted shorts and Blink 182 Singlet top and slipped on my converse as I texted Nick to let him know I was going to see mum, he might want to come and have lunch with us.

Meet me at the KFC across the road. – NICK

Ok. Be about 30 minutes. – Kenzie

Ok. See you then xx – NICK

 

Nick was a really good older brother. He took care of me since dad left and mum got sick, if I needed something he wouldn’t mind if I asked. I even told him that I had gotten my period before mum. That’s how close we were. He loved me and he made sure that I knew that.

I met Nick at the KFC and he already ordered for us. When our order was ready we crossed the road together and walked up to mum’s room. We sat and talked and ate. As we were leaving Luke stopped me and asked me why I wasn’t at school.

“I just over slept because nobody woke me up.” I told him.

“Why didn’t Luke wake you up?” He asked clearly confused.

“I wasn’t at Luke’s last night. He went to Ashton’s with his friends.” I explained

“Were you at home last night?”

“Yep.” I replied

“Why didn’t you tell me?” He asked starting to get angry.

“Geesh, calm down Nick nothing happened, next time I’ll let you know.” I apologised 

He drove me back home and I went to bed.

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