Dear Bobby,
It was so cold here in New York. Yes! I'm here at New York. Pinilit lang ako nila Mommy. Wala akong magawa. I wasn't able to say goodbye to you. I wish to see you one more time... Can you come here, Bobby?
I'm sorry I can't stop my tears from falling. I realized that I might not see you again. I should have told you how much I love you, right? I love you so much, Bobby. It is so painful, Bob. I don't think I can write letters to you anymore. I can't even see well. Every part of my body is aching painfully. I wanna end this misery. I'm gonna hurt many people again. I love you, mom, dad, our friends, even James. I was so thankful for James even if all he did was to forbid me from doing this and that. He was so strict!
I missed you so much. I want to save you from further pain. I always wish for your happiness but... I want to be happy, too. What should I do, Bobby?
Bob, I'm sleepy already. I hope to see you in my dreams even for the last time.
Please. I hope you won't be able to read this.
Ruby
