Asshole Bobby,
I hope you were here so I can kill you myself. Ruby always told me that none of these is your fault but how can I listen to her? You're always the reason of her tears. She might hate me for this but heck. I wanna let you feel the pain she's gone through. Without you. So yeah. Read all the letters she wrote for you.
I get it. You don't know. You don't know that Ruby broke up with you because she wanted to save you from further pain. She's trying to kill your love for her because she thought it was the best for you. She suffered a lot. It's killing me every time I remembered how people around you hurt her. They don't even know what's going on yet they threw hate on her. How can the world became one sided? Why did it only thought about your pain?
You know what? Until her last breath, she keeps on telling how sorry she is for the pain she caused you. She keeps on murmuring in between her gasps how much she loves you. It was so painful for me, too, but why? Why aren't you by her side that moment? She fucking waited for you! You could have made her happy. She could've left the world happily. But no. You were so busy with your own pain that you refused to see hers. You didn't even noticed that she's getting weak. You didn't even care even when you see her puffy eyes. Of all people, you should be the one to know the most that she's in so much pain.
You should've asked her. You should've ran after her. You should have but you didn't.
Yes. I want you to regret everything for the rest of your life. You don't deserve someone so wonderful like her. Not in this lifetime. Not ever.
James
