i feel like im constantly punishing myself for even having feelings
i should be able to recognize that emotions are apart of living, but why am i so scared to show people my emotions ?
i always get this suffocating feeling anytime someone tries to get me to open up, and i hate it
i dont ljke this
bottling up emotions is a bad habit, but its such an easy habit.
especially when you have so much patience with everyone
i want to just
be open with people, and free but it always feels like something is constantly shackling me down
almost like im drowning and can never reach the surface
it's a worse feeling when im around people in public
why cant i just cry about things and be done, why do i have to sit here and let it constantly scramble my brain and leave it to ruin
what happened to me to make me feel such complete emptiness, but only empathy for others ?
what makes everyone else happy? and why cant i just be like them
it feels like any time im around someone, im afraid if im not identical to them, they wont like me
im sick of it,,
what am i even feeling,,
it feels like ive been crying for hours, but i havent
why wont this stupid emptiness go away, and let me feel something different
its annoying
i want it gone,,
maybe even myself gone
