Mistakes can be Healed[TomTord](BEING REWTITED)

Kill me[REWRITED]

Tord's POV

"Mmnnn"
I open my eyes only to get blinded by the rays of sun sipping through the curtains.i close my eyes in discomfort.
I press myself closer to the warm body beside me.
I feel something poking me..it feels nice .I start pressing and thrusting my hips towards it .
"Mm"I let out grunts of pleasure as I feel myself getting aroused.
"T-Tord?"
Tom?
Oh shit Tom.
I stop immediately,frozen.My eyes fly wide open and I jump away letting out a shriek of terror and falling off the fucking bed.
'THUD'
Ow.i can't get up .fuck.
"Tord?you o-ok?"
I try to open my mouth
"y-yeah.i-I am fine"
My voice sounds weak.Not that I'm not but whatever.
I open my eyes again and get up to sit on the bed only to realize I'm hard as a rock.
I look at the floor ashamed of myself ,hugging myself in an attempt to feel more secure.
I feel the Tom sit beside me.He hugs me with one hand around my shoulders.i let out a sigh.
"It's ok,you didn't know"
I feel wrong.
"You didn't know that I hated you "
My eyes widen .This can't be real this is a dream .It must be a dream .He pushes me to the ground and he starts kicking and punching me.I scream in terror.
"HELP.HELP ME.HELP ME!!"

He doesn't stop.

I can feel myself starting to bleed.

"T-Tom.. p-please.."
I reach my hand out trying to reach on him,on something,someone.
He looks down at me with those raging and terrifying yet beautiful voids and speaks in a deep dark voice.
"You should have thought that before trying to seduce me.you disgusting faggot"
He stops .
I feel my eyes water .
My breath hitches.
"You are just pure evil"
I can't breathe.
He takes out a knife.Gets to one knee on my level and holds the knife against my throat.
"Goodbye you fucking commie bastard "
With a slash everything turns red and then black.

"HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAH"
My eyes open .i realize I'm crying and laughing hysterically.Pulling on my hair letting out the most pained cries.
"ITS ALL A FUCKING DREAM HAHAHHA"
I jerk my back trashing and kicking.

Everything is so bright.

However my world is so so fuckin' dark

I've finally gone mad.

"TORD !"
"EDD!!COME HERE"I hear footsteps approaching me.Voices talking above me while I'm having my "episode".
"HAHAHHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!KILL ME PLEASE!"it feels like there is no oxygen in the room.
It feels like I'm being stabbed in the heart over and over again.

Just kill me.
Kill me.
Fuckin'kill me!

I beg to the god that I know doesn't exists.

I feel hands trying to hold me down trying to take my hands off my hair.i struggle against them .
"Hahahah fuck you!!hahaha !*sob* its all a fucking dream !*hic*hahaha!"

I feel sick

Nothing is real.

I start crying as I give up against them and sink into the mattress.i let my head roll to my side.i close my eyes in despair waiting for a punch or an insult .The tears and won't stop .

It never comes.
I can only feel a hand wiping my tears .And another massaging my palm.i open my eyes only to meet the voids that I'm fond yet terrified of.I try to suppers a sob  and fail miserably.
"T-Tom"
My voice is wavering.
I cover my eyes with my arm,trying to hide the fact that I'm breaking apart.
I feel like glass .
once it's broken it can't be fixed.

I'm broken
"I'm b-broken"
I start sobbing.
I'm fucking broken.

And I'm the one who broke me.

My mistakes
My decisions
I caused this.

You're a self destructive shit.

TOMS POV

It hurts to see Tord like that.sobbing in complete despair.his arms and legs on his left side hanging off the bed like a corpse .
It hurts.
I look at Edd giving Tord a concerted look,then looking back at me.
He sighs .
"Tord.."
Tord continues to cry .
I put my hand on his cheek petting it with affection.
I lean forward planting a kiss on his forehead.
He gasps .His face reddening But the tears come faster down his cheeks.He uncovers one of his eyes.Wide open Filled with terror and confusion and unshed tears.
"T-Tom?.."
I start petting his cheek again .
"Yeah?"
He gulps .His eye filling with tears before asking.
"Are you r-real?"
..

"Yes?"
".. b-but you told me that I'm ...a m-monster, e-evil a-nd...A-And y-you...y-you killed me .."
My eyes widen in confusion and concern .
"No,no Tord.I would never say or do anything like that to you ,never again.I promise."
I see Edd approaching us before sitting down on the bed.
Edd speaks up.
"Tord,please look at me"
Tord sighs and uncovers his eyes turning his head towards Edd.i can finally see how bad he looks.
He has sunken eye sockets with dark circles under them.Watery red eyes and with tear tracks down his cheeks .
Edd bents down to hug him.Tord after a while responds by returning the hug.i get ahold of his hand massaging it.
Edd breaks the hug and then speaks up .
"Tord ,we love you.We can talk about your..episode later after you cool down a little."
He gets up going to the door to leave before saying that we need to come eat breakfast anyway.
Classic mom Edd.
I look back at Tord only to catch him staring at me.
"Ermmm Tord?"
He realizes what he's been doing and covers his face with his hands in embarrassment.
I let out a chuckle at how cute he is.
"Hey it's ok."I say.
I try to remove my hands only to find that his eyes are watery and his face is as red as a tomato.
He's so cute like that.

I want to fuck him so bad.

Ok Tom Stop .WTF?!
I can feel my face also get hotter and my no no place getting excited by this.
I let out a sigh trying to ground myself.
"Com-Tord don't cry.Why are you crying?"i let out a gentle smile remembering the nickname.
Tord raises a hand to wipe his tears and then talks .
"I-in my dream ..you punished me for ...s-s-staring at y-you...and I got scared.."
He looks away face red with embarrassment.
I feel like he's not saying the whole truth,but it's not the time for that.
"I promise i will never act anything like that ever again .You don't have to worry ."
I stop a little.and begin again
"Anyway ,let's go get breakfast."
He sits up and smiles at me even tho with tear tracks still on his cheeks and red eyes which makes it clear that he's been crying.
"Thank you Jehovah"
His chuckle is like heaven.