Mistakes can be Healed[TomTord](BEING REWTITED)

What's your life worth?[REWRITED]

Tord's POV.

Everything feels wrong.

I see only black and it feels like I'm floating.

It's hard to breathe.

Suddenly it feels like I'm falling .Waiting ,shirking into the darkness waiting for something to happen.To my surprise as I keep on falling in the black void I see the ground .i crash with great force on the ground .A sickening crack echoes through the air.Still I'm pretty surprised that I didn't die ,I get up groaning in pain.My lungs feel like they are about collapse.Holding my sides in pain I take a step forward trying to find where the heck I am.
"Hello?"
...
The only answer I got is silence.
I try to take another step but i feel a wall blocking my path.
Confused I start to feel around with my hands only to realize I'm in a trapped.

I'm trapped.

Alone.

In the dark.

I start to panic.
"H-help..HELP"
I hit the barrier with all my will to break it but nothing works.Suddenly a sob escapes my throat.I hit the back of my head on the opposite wall sliding down and curling myself into a ball.
"help,help,help,help"
Nobody's is gonna save me .

They don't care.

They HATE me.

Tom's POV
"help me"
I wake up at the sound of sobbing and whimpering.
"What the hell?.."
Confused I get up from my bed to open the door of my room.Once I open it I pop my head out to look at the hallway.
"HELP M-me *sob*"
Shit,this voice.Its Tord.i rush down the hallway only to see Tord in the floor trashing around ,clenching his sides .Slightly panicked I try to get closer to him.
"Tord?Buddy it's ok"
"Wake up"
Tord's POV

I'm alone.

They can't save me.

Nothing is ok.

The walls are closing in .i start to panic and hysterically cry,letting our shrieks of terror .trashing and kicking in an attempt to escape.
I give up .
I give up curling in myself,bawling my eyes out.
"Please help me"

YOUR LIFE ISN'T WORTH SAVING. 

Tom's POV

He wasn't waking up.Fuck.
I start to panic.i sit beside him on his bed.
He starts trashing and whimpering.And oh god.
He is hysterically crying saying help me over and over.It breaks my heart to see him like that .
Before I could do anything Edd and Matt burst in the room looking panicked as me at the sound of Tord's cries.
I gesture them that I could handle it.They get out quickly before Edd pops his head in.
"Tom when all this ends we have to talk in the morning"
"Ok.."
Once he leaves I look back down at Tord.Brows furrowed,tears running down his cheeks through his tightly closed eyes.His shaking hands gripping the blanket like his life depends on it .His cries and heaving echoing throughout the empty room making the atmosphere suffocating.i move closer to him and I lift him up and put him on my lap.i don't care if his tears are staining my shirt,I don't care that he's gripping my shirt so hard,he needs this.
He needs affection.
I start to pet his hair.
"Tord wake up" I whisper in his ear.
"*sob* w-worth..l-les-s"
He's talking in his sleep.his tremors worsen and he's practically whizzing and gasping for air.
"hey.Hey.Tordie .Wake up its ok"
He doesn't wake up.infact his breathing speeds up.
I can't see him like this anymore.
"TORD!I BEG YOU WAKE U-up"my voice cracks .
With a gasp,Tord wakes up .He's struggling trying to escape from my embrace as if he's still stuck in the dream realm.
"Tord.Tord.Its me Tom.fuck,please look at me ."
He looks up with fearful eyes .Fogged up with terror and panic.
"T-Tom?i-I a-am So-orry .
I-I-i -"
"Tord.its okay it's me Tord you're ok ,breathe."
He falls back into my chest ,trying to take in a breath and failing miserably.
"To-om.i-I can't.i can't b-breathe"
He whispers against my chest voice muffled and raspy.
I hug him and message circles on his back i with my one hand the other petting his hair.
"Tord..no,I know you can please try again."
He nods and tries again and draws in a breath .His breathing slows down and the tears stop.The only thing heard is our breaths .Once he's calm enough I feel him move his head out of my shoulder to look at me.

He looks at me with those piercing blues-grayish eyes,now red and bloodshot,with no trace of happiness ,only fear and sorrow.
Tear tracks down his cheeks.
His lips quivering and formed into a frown.
Brows arched upwards in distress .
Even in this state he's still stunning.And he will always be .i don't care if it sounded gay ,because it's true.
He's so fucking beautiful .
Inside and out.
He lets out a sigh.his hands fall from my back down to the mattress like dead weight.
Tord opens his mouth say something.
"T-Tom.."
His eyes feel with tears as he looks down to the mattress,like he's disappointed with himself .

like he's angry with himself.
"Hey,hey Tord look at me ."He closes his eyes letting a tear roll down his cheek .A shaky breath making its way out.
"Please look at me"

He hesitantly looks me in the eyes .
He takes in a shaky breath.
"I-I'm sorry y-you had to see this .."he looks towards the window, at the rain.
He's like rain .Sad,crying but beautiful at the same time.

"You have nothing to be sorry for"
He closes his eyes .
"I care about you,even if I'm a dick sometimes .We all care about you.And-"he cuts me off.
He shakes his head in distress and then looking up at me with those tear filled eyes and lip quivering .

"I-i-i am n-not worth your c-care.."

he brings his hands to his eyes wiping his tears in frustration.
I frown at the visible sorrow and self loathing radiating off him .Radiating off this venomous sentence he just mouthed about himself.
"Tord we love you ,God we love you all so much .We forgive you for what you did.You had your reasons..All it's in the past.We love you ,you are worth it,you are so fucking worth it."
He smiles tears sipping throughout his eyes .He let's himself fall into my chest.
I can feel his breath shuddering ,his small tremors and shaking.
"Tha-ank y-you Tom"
I smile and pet his hair and hug him tighter.
"no problem Tord.In the morning we have to talk.Please don't shut us out "
He chuckles "ok mom."

We stay like that for awhile.
I totally forgot that his head is in the crook my neck .His legs around my waist.his arms  on my neck gripping my shirt.
My face gets red as perverted thoughts take over my brain.
He also seems to realize this because I can feel his face getting warmer through my shirt.
With a raspy voice the commie speaks up.
"Uhh T-Tom?I know it sounds stupid but can you sleep with me please?"he whispers in embarrassment.
I gulp and I can feel myself getting uncomfortable down there.However I accept anyway.Night terrors suck.I don't want Tord to 
have another panic attack.
"Yeah sure "
I lay us down tord's still holding onto me ,not looking like letting go anytime sooner.
"Tord?.."
..
"Yeah?Jehovah?"
I grunt at the nickname but let it pass.

"Please don't shut us out."
He sighs
"I..I'll try."
I smile hugging him close petting his hair and wrapping a blanket around us.
"Good."
With that we fall asleep.