Mistakes can be Healed[TomTord](BEING REWTITED)

Sun Rays

Tord's Pov

I'm still thinking about it .
It's bugging me and I can't help it .
Just ,I need to keep it together.

A little longer at least

I snap out of my daze and
I realize I have stopped walking and now I'm just standing in the middle of the hallway.
Jeez .
I sigh and walk down the hallway waiting for Jehovah.
I don't really want to meet the others.
I mean,it's not that like them ,I just..i wanna be left alone really.
Or maybe not.

I just wanna be alone with the right person.

"Tord."
I snap out of my gaze and realize that I have spaced out TWICE.
"Oh .Em yea?"
"You ok?i mean you seem out of it."
I sigh and respond
"Yeah I'm ..fine..just I don't really want to walk.."
In seconds I feel Tom's arm's lifting me up bridal style.
"O-Ok T-Tom what are you doing??"
I blush in embarrassment.
"Well you said you didn't wanna walk and I can lift you just fine sooo..Yea that's it"
I nuzzle his chest and reply with a smile
"Thank you.T-Tommie"I whisper feeling my face getting hotter .
He pulls me closer to his chest and responds with whispering to my ear
"Oh so now,I have a nickname?"
He says in a seductive voice making me shiver.
I look at his chest as we walk mumbling
"I-I'm sorry,I p-promise I-haaa"I gasp as I feel one of his hands squeezing my butt .
"I-I-"he cuts me off as I was unable to speak.
"Well I guess it's fine ,Tordle.But first.."
He stops and whispers into my ear.
"We have to go somewhere else first"
I start panicking thinking I was doing something that pissed him off.
He walks us to the bathroom and closes the door behind him with his foot.He puts me on the counter of the sink.
I start shaking in fear thinking that he is gonna hit me.
He puts me down on my feet and I feel dread as i close my eyes.

Instead i feel him placing a kiss on my lips.

TOMS POV

I did it.
I couldn't hold myself back.
I had to tell him.
To make him mine.i want him to call me Tommie every day .
So I kissed him.
He kisses me back and I deepen the kiss.
I wrap my arms around his waist and pull him closer.
"Ah-Tom.."
I can feel our crotches rubbing against each other ,making my head spin.
Tord's moans fill the room.

I hug him in an attempt to bring him closer to me.
We break the kiss gasping for air.
Tord is so gorgeous.
His cheeks are flushed ,eyes dazed looking and unfocused looking at me,he's panting ,lips red so kissable and he visibly has an erection.
"T-Tommie.."
I breathe in,holding myself back.
"Yes,sweetheart?"I brush with my palm his cheek.
He blushes even more at the nickname unable to meet my eyes.
"Do you really mean t-this?"
He closes his eyes,biting his lip

(anxiety).

"Yes and..."
I kiss him again in a more passionate way.
He closes his legs a little and he let's out a gasp.i pull back and look down on him before leaning down again .
"I hope you do too"
This time he cups my face and pecks my lips before saying
"Of course I do too,Tommie"
That was what set me off.
I lean down and start undoing his pants in pure arousal. Once I finish before taking off his boxers I look up to him and ask for permission he nods in embarrassment ,small whimpers escaping him.

TORD'S POV

I couldn't hold myself back .it was like I was on some kind of drug.
Tom is my drug.

He makes me feel even better than all the drugs I have ever taken.

You fuckin' drug addict.

He doesn't love a disgusting cunt like you,

maybe you'll understand when you overdose yourself.

I snap back into reality by Tom giving me a concerned look.
I can hear my heart's thumbing in my ears drowning out my heavy panting and moans.
Before I could say anything Tom stops ,panicking by my reaction.
He stops and gets his face close to mine .He cups my face with his palms ,worried.
"T-Tord.Hey ,what's wrong?"
I try to speak but only a whimper escapes me.i choke on my breath trying to calm myself.

"T-Toamm,haaa..I-i cant b-breathe ha"
The room is spinning. My chest hurts.it hurts so bad.
I close my eyes in an attempt to make everything stop.

i crawl at my chest until it bleeds.

Tom pulls me into an embrace putting my head on his chest, stopping me from hurting myself.

Why should he love someone like you?
A drug addict
A backstabber
A fucking stupid and worthless human like you?even tho you are far from being considered a person or a human being.

You're a fucking MONSTER

He hugs me tighter ,I let myself melt on his hands.
My face feels hot as I try to calm down.

After a while he sees that I have calmed down enough he sighs and asks.
"Tord..what was that?..I mean I know what it was-but I mean,what triggered it?"
I hold my breath asking myself if I should tell him that I'm a drug addict..I mean,its not that I dont wanna be honest with him but...
I'm afraid he will be disgusted of me.
"Tord you can tell me..I will not get mad."
Fuck it
"I-I...Tom I was..and still am a..drug addict..."
He pauses and within minutes I feel droplets of water on my neck .
Confused I look up only to realize Tom is silently crying.i wrap my arms around his neck,silently regretting my decision..
"Tom ..I am so s-sorry"
His breath hitches.
He pulls away and looks up at me with a frown,cheeks stained with teardrops.
"Dont you ever say sorry,for something like this.It's my fault I made you feel like this"
I chuckle .its funny.
It's funny how someone who hated you for so long is now crying in front of you because they made you feel like shit.
I sigh,putting aside the urge to laugh at how pathetic I am.
"I was always that way,I always embraced the pain Tom.Thats how I was taught to,In the orphanage.you may have...also made feel like shit sometimes in the past,but it's not your fault.you didn't know I was a junkie.."
I dont feel anything anymore.
"Still..it's not right to be treated this way.i should have noticed.."
I relax my stiff shoulders letting myself melt on his arms,closing my eyes.
Tom hugs my waist tighter ,before speaking,
"Just..tell me when you feel this way or like doing something like that again."
"...okay."
He picks me up and we go down the hallway and then into the living room .
He then places me on the couch .

I feel the atmosphere lightening up.
Edd and Matt are talking in the kitchen for something, idk.Tom is sitting behind me hugging my waist watching tv.
I dont really care if Edd and Matt think that we are in a relationship, which we are after this morning ,but I guess they will figure it out anyway.
I sink into the couch feeling at peace,i let my eyes flutter close .

Maybe one day I'll learn to forgive myself

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And done.i know this took long but my life is pretty fucked up these last months. Also happy new year🤗