The note was like a lightning struck on me. He abandoned me for two long days. For two long days without him. Each second without him was like a decade for me to survive . I lay on the floor which was like a desert and left thirsty and longing in that parchment. The note left me a wounds of third degree burns, my whole body shredded into pieces. I was alone in that flat of Arthit's for two shitty days. I did not eat or drink. I laid like a carcass half eaten and half left over to be decomposed by flies and maggots.
He refused to accept me as a lover. He said no to my love. If I have fallen in love with him, was it my fault? If he was so cute, dashing, honest, sincere and lovable, was it my fault? If he made me realize of my own sexuality, was it my fault? My fault was to fall in love with him. But what about him? Who asked him to be so gentle, ambitious and handsome for me? Who asked him to take care of me like my Mae? Who asked him to make me understand the beautiful feeling called love? Who asked him to evoke in me lustful and passionate feelings by looking at his body and often his unforgettable ass. I love everything about him.
He called me names like 'psycho' and 'maniac'. Was loving him meant my love was a sin or an obsession? My love was, is and will be love forever. My love is so unique of its kind that even Arthit would never understand. I had nightmares, hallucinations, anxious feelings and above all, the feeling for abandoned by him forever. I was 19 then. Wild, youthful and yet aggressive. How could I be blamed for that? I am 22 now, even now, I always have the feeling of being estranged from him. And that was what he did. Well, let me not talk about it now.
I decided to end my life and I took a blade and cut my right hand vein without any note. That what was the end of me. I thought so. I slowly engulfed in darkness where there was no fear of separation, abandonment, estrangement, running away or break up.
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Break Up
FanfictionHe never thought his boyfriend, lover and husband would break up with him just because he was dying , a very painful death. But I won't let him die. Credits- Bittersweet and internet.
