Break Up

MY Love Days

I  bear hugged him as soon as my brain sent me signals of his acceptance as a boyfriend.  He could not balance my weight and we both landed on the couch with me on top of him.  I grinned ear to ear and kissed his right cheek out of excitement.  I did not leave for five minutes and he was struggling to get out of clutch.  It was almost eight in the evening and finally when my senses got better hold on me, I got from him and allowed him to breathe.  Suddenly, he felt silent and avoided my gaze.  He busied himself by preparing some light supper for us.  He vanished into the open kitchen and did not mind for nearly half an hour. I laid on the couch with my eyes closed since the chasing of Arthit had a toll on my body.

He called my name and I opened my eyes.  I got up and sat on the chair which was near him.  He served him fried noodles and we ate in silence. All the time we were having our supper, he did not look at me and avoided my gaze.  I was staring at him as if I would eat him raw.  After our supper, I helped do the dishes and he asked me to leave ignoring my protest.  He closed the door on my face.  I reached my home and went straight to my room.  My parents were already in their bed when I reached home.  I wanted to share my joy with them, somehow I felt a kind of solace in my heart.  I almost slept the moment I hit my shack, but suddenly I woke at around 12:00, and an urge arouse see my Arthit.  It was rainy heavily outside.  As in a trance, I left my house, walked all the way to his house for almost an hour and knocked at his door.  At around 1:00 and that too at the middle of the night with clothes wet and hair disheveled, Arthit was shocked beyond his imagination.  He thought at first, I was attacked by those loafers, or worse raped or groped, letting out all sorts of bad thoughts and rolling me like a doll over and over to check for any signs of bruises or injuries.  But I was looking at his eyes, the eyes that held care for me, worry for me, pain for me and above all love for me.

I held him by his shoulders pushed him back to the wall, placed my palm on his mouth and kissed him on his right cheek and then left cheek.  When the muffled sounds from his mouth suddenly because of the kisses, I ungagged his mouth  and kissed his lips.My left hand found its way on his neck and  tilted his face on my mouth and gently kissed his upper lip and then lower lip. I looked into his eyes and 

"I love you Arthit.  I cannot be without you.  You are my life and I dedicate my entire life to you".  saying those words I passed out on his shoulders.

All I remembered was that in the morning, I was on the bed with Arthit sleeping  on  the chair near me, I was in one of the Arthit's shorts and T shirts- and a wet rag was on my forehead.   I tried to get up slowly but I could not since I felt dizzy and my sudden moment brought Arthit out of his nap.  He looked wasted as he eyes were blood shot and his face looked tired.  He jumped from the chair and made me lie down on bed.  

"Lie down, still running temperature Kongpob".

"I want to go to washroom".

"I will help you".

"You don't have any sense of responsibility.  Who asked you to get wet in the rain?  How did you come?  All walking.  You know it is so dangerous to walk alone at night.  I wonder whether your parents know you are here or not.   I don't know I got a kid for a boyfriend............"

He went on and on holding me waist and supporting my arm on his shoulder.  Once into the bathroom, I could not stop myself from crying.  I did not know what happened to me.  I cried for almost five minutes.  Arthit was clucking like a mother hen not seeing me coming out for such a long time.   The moment I walked out of the bathroom, he scooped me into his arms and laid on bed.  He adjusted my boulder and covered with the quilt till my neck and as he turned to leave me, I caught his wrist and pulled him to me, he fell on me and I took him in embrace crying and inhaling his scent at the same time.

"Arthit, love me, please, be my boyfriend."

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