Unexpected

23

"Miley, just give him some space." Ryan said calmly.
"He's been alone, Ryan. I need to check on him." I argued.
"You don't know J when he goes through this shit like I do, and I'm telling you that he will want to be alone."
"My relationship with Justin is different than the relationship you have with him. I know you've known him way longer than me, and that he's your best friend but he's my boyfriend. He just heard shitty, heart breaking news and I think he needs someone right now. If he doesn't want me, I will leave but for all we know he might need me."
I waited for him to reply, but he didn't. He let out a small breath, and gave me a small nod. Everyone else was quiet. I walked downstairs and entered Justin's room.
The door was wide open with a hole in it. The room looked like a tornado hit it. It was an absolute mess. Holes were punched into the wall, clothes were all over the floor, glass from the mirror was scattered, and our dressers were on the floor along with the TV.
Justin was sitting in the corner of the room. His face was emotionless, and he was staring straight ahead. His knuckles were bloody, and his hair was a mess. I walked over to him, and knelt down by his side. I placed my hand on his arm and rubbed it. He slowly turned his head towards me, giving me a better look at his face. His cheeks were stained with dry tears, and his eyes were glossy. He looked more sad than emotionless now. It broke my heart seeing him like this.
"I wish it were me." He quietly said with his weak voice.
"Don't say that." I shook my head.
"They didn't fucking deserve it! It's my fucking fault! My fucking fault, all of my fucking fault! I should be dead, I want to be fucking dead. I want to die. I didn't protect them and they're dead. My fucking grandma..grandpa..Ja- its my fucking fault. My fault."
His cheeks were wet with tears. His breathing was heavy. It made my eyes fill with tears. I never thought I'd see him like this. I placed my hands on his cheeks and wiped away his tears.
"Baby, it's not your fault. You would have done something if you could have."
"You know, mom and dad are dead because of me, too." He said as if he didn't hear me.
"Justin-"
"No I don't want to hear it. Its my fault, I put them through this shit. Jason McCann..I'm a fuck up. I should be dead by now, I deserve to be."
"Don't say that, Justin. I don't want to fucking hear that. I love you so much, and I need you to always remember that. I will never leave you, I will be with you every step of the way."
He was silent and studied my face. I hoped he could see the concern and sadness. I could feel his pain.
"I'm dangerous." He said quietly.
"Do you think that's going to keep me away, and stop me from loving you? I'm always going to be with you."
"You're all I have."
"You'll always have me."
"Fuck...Miley, you're all I have. All I have. I can't ever lose you. I need you."
"You aren't going to lose me, you have me. I promise."
"I can't let anything happen to you."
"Baby, nothing will happen to me."
He didn't say anything, he just licked his lips as he slowly blinked. He placed his hands on mine and removed them from his face, holding my hands in his. He placed a kiss on my hand before letting go of them, and putting and arm on my back, pulling me closer to him. I laid my head on his chest that slowly moved up and down.
"Thank you for coming into my life, and loving me as much as I love you." Justin murmured.
"I always will, baby." I assured.
I felt him place a soft kiss on my head, and his hand slowly went up and down my back.
"I love you, Miley."
"I love you."
We stayed quiet. It was like the silence was meant to be there. I laid in Justin's arms, my head on his slow chest. His hand rubbing my back. Silence surrounding us. We were the only two people in this world. At least that's what we wanted. Justin wanted to be Justin, not Jason McCann. In this moment, we were Miley and Justin. Jason McCann didn't exist. Miley and Justin. This is what Justin wanted, and I didn't dare ruin the moment. I laid in his safe, strong arms. All he wanted was for me to stay, and I did.
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