My Life as An American High Schooler

I HATE MYSELF

Lmaooo here we are again. I last wrote in this back in November. And back in November I told myself "damn no one reads this but you should write more because sometimes you come back and read it and it makes you laugh and cry because it's funny". So yea I got back on Wattpad like 4 days ago and found this AGAIN and I cried. And I laughed. Like honestly I was so shook at freshman year me. Like that feels so long ago. Like hellooooo IM GONNA BE A FUCKIG SENIOR YALL A SENIOR. It's crazy. I don't know how to feel. Hell im applying to colleges.

I've been good honestly. I'm happy. It feels so good to say that. Junior year kicked my butt I'm not gonna lie. I had ups and downs in classes, ups and downs with friendships, but I'm happy. I've come to peace with a lot. And to me that's what matters. Looking back and seeing how sad and upset I got over things my freshman year made me proud of where I am now. I'm happy, my relationship is now healthy. I love myself and feel loved.

Basketball is good Incase anyone wants to know aka 2 people. I've been having some hard summer practices and we've been having games too. They've been fun and I feel I'm improving. I'm honestly sad it's my last year on a team. I don't think I'd want to play in college. It just seems too scary.

My mans is amazing. We worked out all our wrongs we've come to terms with each other honestly we just love one another and it makes me feel just overjoyed. I love him (which is scary) but I do.

I mean there's nothing much to my life. My class officer stuff well we're just planning for prom and final fundraisers. It's all so exciting. I'm ready to have fun and finish out high school strong. I'm just happy.

I think I'll end here. It's like 1 AM lmao and I feel tired now that I've let out these mini emotions.

If anyone out there reads this, hi ❤️ I'm looking for new internet buddies so ya know hit ya girl up panic2902