A Broken Angel - a Lisa Cimorelli story

Lost

Lisa:
"What happened , where am I "
I said as I looked at Christina, I suddenly became very hot and was struggling for breath.
"Doctor, help please" I heard Christina shout out.
I looked over to Noah and his voice became quieter as he spoke. My vision was blurred and I heard an echo bouncing across the room " lisa it's doctor Anthony , you need to try and relax you're having a panic attack, just try and breathe slowly.
Seconds went by and then a mask was placed over my mouth an the doctor said " this will help you lisa, as I said before breathe slow"
My brain was unable to take in what he was saying as I still struggled to breathe , until I felt someone take hold of my hand , it was Noah. I slowly began to relax.
" Ahh that's better" Noah said smiling."its good to have you back Lise"
I lifted the mask from my face and said " hey, I didn't know if you'd be here"
" I'm gonna stay with you until your better , when you have got help"
"Help "
I pulled my hand away , why would he say I need help ," I'm completely fine , I don't need help"
He sat quietly and looked towards Christina,
"What are you not telling me , why are you saying I need help"
I got no answer.
"Tell me then"
Christina then spoke up," we know you've been harming yourself Lisa"
My heart dropped into my stomach and I was lost for words.
How was I going to explain this to them. I looked over to Noah and he locked his deep blue eyes into mine. His face was full of concern.
" I I I ..."
"Lisa you don't need to explain to us but you are going to get help, you cannot live your life in fear anymore,it seems you are trying to escape the fear by harming yourself which is not the answer"
Christina held my hand and continued with saying " your my little sister and Its my job to protect you even if its from yourself"
Tears took control of my eyes and they poured out " thank you " I said as I looked at both Noah and Christina.
" I need to go speak to the doctor ill be quick" and Christina left the room.
I looked over to Noah and said " I know you are just trying to help but I don't want it"
"Lise.."
"Noah no , I cannot face them type of doctors, they brand you mental , incapable of anything. I cannot go there"
Noah looked at me disappointed about my decision but I couldn't care at that moment. I have to think about myself and doctors like that are not coming anywhere near me.
My thoughts were disrupted when Christina entered the room
" good news , the doctor said you can leave today"
"Great" i said sarcastically
" don't be to excited then"
" no I am happy, I cannot wait to get back to my bed for good"
Once I had signed out , I was wheeled to the car and sat in the back whilst Noah drove and Christina sat in the passengers seat.
We finally got home after being stuck in traffic for what seemed like hours and was greeted with a happy welcome from my family.
However the happiness was short lived.