My Dark Past

Chapter 13 Tour

"Ashley are you ready?" I look up and see Luke "yeah" "come on let's go sis" 6 months on tour with this boy's oh this should be pretty interesting. We walked on the bus, the boys have a show in London tonight and then we're leaving after the show tonight I don't even know the next stop, bye London see ya in 6 months "Hey Ashley"  "yeah Luke" "come on we're gonna take selfies get in here" "okay" we took several selfies we took them all on Luke's phone Luke sent all the pictures to me and the boys when we were done. ******************************

I was backstage waiting for the boys they were singing their last song of the night heartbreak girl the boys just got done with their performance they were thanking the fans at this point. "We love you guys so so much you guys rock we wouldn't be where we are without you guys you guys got us this far thank you so much" "yeah thank you  so much we love you" "love you guys" "love you guys so much. would you guys like to meet someone very important to me and don't get worried not my girlfriend I'm still single pringle she's my sister who wants to meet my sis?" *screams* shit no I  have terrible stagefright Luke looked at me the boys were waving at me to come on stage but I shook my head no and turned around and started walking away next thing I know I'm being picked up by Mikey "put me down Michael" I yell trying to get out of his grip "okay" he put me down in the middle of the stage by Luke I feel sick I looked at Luke "Ashley say hi to the fans" "um hi" I waved *screams* I ran off stage "sorry guys Ashley is a little stage shy" "I walked on the bus and got in my buck and crawled under the covers I put my earbuds in and put the volume on full blast.

                        Luke's Pov

We followed Ashley to the bus why would she run off stage she was in her bunk with her earbuds in "Ashley?" she couldn't hear me I took out her earbuds "WHAT THE FUCK DUDE GO AWAY LEAVE ME ALONE AND GIVE THAT BACK!" "Okay calm down ash why did you run off the stage?"  "because I have horrible stagefright. I always have I hate being on stage!" "oh" "yeah" she rolled her eyes at me and turned back over "sorry Ashley we didn't know" "it's okay Luke you didn't know but can I have my music back now?" "yeah hear" "thank you" I closed the curtain to her bunk and walked in the other room to play videogames with the boys.
                    *Next Day*
                   Ashley's Pov

I woke up I looked at my phone 6 am to damn earily I got up to go to the bathroom I walked back to my bunk put my earbuds in and went back to bed. 

       *****4 hours later********

I woke up to someone poking me" "Ashley wake up"  "hmm no" I roll over and open my eyes and see Ashton "there's those eyes" "oh shush it you" *Laughs*"hi" "hi" I stretched my arms out to wake up  "come on me and the boys made breakfast" "okay" I rolled out of bed and went to eat breakfast with the boys. 

                *Later That Night*

I was scrolling through Twitter and saw Luke tagged me and the boys in those selfies we took earlier he posted a few of them on Twitter I was scrolling through the replys some were nice but most were really mean like "look at her she's so ugly she doesn't deserve to be Luke's sister" "I bet she's really Luke's girlfriend  and not telling anyone" "I bet her and Mikey are dating did you see how he was carrying her on stage" "I bet she's fucking the whole band even her own brother" "what a slut!" "I bet she bagged the drummer her and Ashton probably fuck all the time" I turned my phone off  tears blurred my vision I just broke down into tears I cried into my pillow I was the only one on the bus the boys  were still at the show I ran to the bathroom and looked in the mirror I looked like crap I locked the doors and grabbed my old friend yep the razor I wasn't thinking I just started cutting up and down both arms then my thighs when I was done I cleaned everything up and went back to my bunk and cried myself to sleep.     

                   Michael's Pov

We just got back from the show it was wicked I walked to my bunk I heard Ashton talking to Ashley she was sleeping gosh Ashton leave the poor girl alone and let her sleep I roll over and close my eyes and start to drift off to sleep. 

                   Ashton's Pov

After the show when we got back on the bus I walked straight to Ashley's bunk she was sleeping I figured it was actually pretty late I decide to wake her "baby wake up" she rolled over and smiled at me "hey babe" I smiled at her "just wanted to let you know when we got here okay babe" "Okay can I got back to bed now" "yeah of course" I kissed her and  she kissed back I smiled through the kiss and then I went to bed myself.

                   1 week later

                 Calum's Pov

"guys Ashley is acting distant lately and well just different" I paused me and Mikey's game and looked at Ash he was such a drama queen gosh "Ashton she probably misses home she's not used to traveling" "whatever" and he stormed off to his bunk "guys I'm worried to" "well don't be Luke I'm sure she's fine right Michael" "right" then he walked to his buck as well then me and Mikey keep playing videogames if I know Ashley she's fine.

                    Ashton's Pov

I know something is wrong with Ashley I can tell even Luke is worried but he's always worried but she won't leave her bunk not to even to eat she won't eat! she goes to the bathroom that's it. I know something the other boys don't Ashley used to cut I promised I wouldn't tell and I never have but that's why I'm worried what if just maybe she relapsed. I pray and hope she didn't and hasn't and won't. I put my earbuds in ignoring the world drifting off to sleep.