My Dark Past

Chapter 15 Hospital

    2 weeks later Ashley's Pov

So it's been 2 weeks since the girls left they told the boys about the hate ugh and the boys of course went off on their fans when I told them not to! I mean they still love their fans with all their hearts of course but they were really mad. But of course the hate only got worse! and I definitely didn't tell the boys that obviously.  I was scrolling threw Twitter when I saw the worst tweet yet "your an attention seeking whore,I mean I think we all know your banging the boys even your own brother how pathetic ha, listen nobody likes you not even the boys why don't you do everyone a favor and go kill yourself you'd make the world a happier place if you did" that hurt a lot the tears fell down my cheeks I cried into my pillow for awhile I decided I cried long enough I got up and walked to the bathroom I looked at myself in the mirror I looked horrible I was wreaked, I washed my face and looked in the mirror again thinking of all these words said their right i should just die. I grabbed the razor and started cutting up and down the left arm first then the right each cut getting deeper I looked down both arms where dripping blood I tried to stop the bleeding but I cut to deep crap I slid down the wall crying on the floor as I was now surrounded by a puddle of blood that was forming from the blood dripping from my arm oh my god I'm gonna die. Well this is what I wanted isn't.

                 Ashton's Pov

I decided to check on Ashley she's been in the bathroom awhile now, I got up and walked to the bathroom door I heard a sob I  knocked on the door "Ashley are you okay?" "um yeah I'm fine" *sniff* I heard her cuss under her breath "ASHLEY LET ME IN NOW!" *knocks on door hard*

"NO!" "ASHLEY!" no reply I looked under the door Ashley was on the ground sitting in a pool of blood and there was a razor on the ground beside her crap I kicked down the door "Ashley" she looked up at me tears streaming down her face "Ashley I thought you stopped" "I-I did but" she started crying again. I held her "shh it's gonna be okay we need to get you to hospital though okay. Luke!!" "No! no hospital!" Luke came running in. "Oh my god what happened!?!" "Luke go call an ambulance now!" "No please no!" "yes Ashley! Luke go!" he ran off to call an ambulance he handed me the phone and I told them everything that happened "their on there way" I was talking to Ashley trying to calm her down, when the ambulance showed up and took her to the hospital me and the boys followed behind the ambulance when we got there I explained everything to the boys Luke wouldn't stop crying Calum had to calm him down we were all pretty upset, all we could do now is wait.

                          *1 hour later*

"Family of Ashley Hemmings" we all stood up "she's fine now she has 210 stitches in the left arm and 130 on the right. she's awake now if you'd like to see her follow me" "thank you doctor" we walked to Ashley's room she was watching tv "Ashley" she looked up and saw us she looked like she was gonna cry "I-I'm sorry" "Ashley it's okay" "why didn't you tell us before?" "Are you okay?" I hugged her "Ashley it's okay look your still alive and everything is fine" "NO ITS NOT FINE!" "why what's not fine?"

                         Ashley's Pov

I looked at them on the verge of tears "can we just go I wanna go back to the bus please" "I'll go talk to the doctor" Luke left the room to look for the doctor, great Luke came back with the doctor. "Hi Ashley, how are you feeling?" "Hi I feel like I wanna go home" *doctor laughs* "I'm sure you do but we're gonna keep you over night" "ugh" "one of you can stay the night with Ashley if you like but visiting hours are over so the rest of you must leave" "ME!" all four boys shout "Ashton stay with me" "of course babe" "but she's my sister!" Ashton climbed into the bed with me I layed my head on his chest.

                        *4 hours later*

Me and Ash have been cuddling and watching tv. "Ashley?" I look up at him "yeah Ash" "why'd you do it?" I didn't say anything I looked down "Ashley please tell me it's killing me" "the hate okay the hate from the fans I couldn't take it anymore and your probably thinking that's really stupid it's just a little bit of hate but it really hurt" I started crying man I've cried alot today I need to stop that. he pulled me close into a hug. "Shhh baby it's okay why didn't you tell me?" "I didn't want you to be mad at your fans" "you have such a big heart you know that baby don't let them get to you your perfect to me and the boys I love you and it hurts me to see you hurt and you have so many people who care about you. Promise me you won't do it again. No more Ashley! okay? promise me." "okay Ash I promise I won't do it again and I love you to" and this time I meant it. I was done cutting and hurting the ones I love by cutting. That night I fell asleep in Ashton's arms.

                *2 months later*

It's been 2 months since the incident and I've been clean since for 2 months as well yes I've been keeping my promise. Today is also the day me and the boys go home from tour, tour was fun but I can't wait to be home, London here we come.