The numb feeling of your absence still pierces me as much as it did on the day you left,colder than a winter night, wind howling, the metal shards of my heart have become undone and the walls have been reconstructed (Who else is going to get through my heart?). I still wonder my name ever cross your mind even for a second. You have made me love so much then I could ever expect. I show affection in the grandest of ways now, with letters stringing together. The extraordinary reaction when I wrote something for someone makes me euphoric, and to know it was you that inspired it all has me thankful. The ring of your laugh,like bells dancing to a tune,is still engraved in my heart and labeled carefully. You have no idea how many times I tried to suffocate myself after finding that you left me. To reach for my throat and grasp it, gasp until my lungs have given out and lay limp. I've wanted to go with sea, flow like another plastic that we used to hurt the environment and die as it should. Year I am scared of what we call death. The danger of it awakens when you hold a knife to your heart. But I have to stay here. I have to continue talking to the moon and stars (I know how much you love them) maybe you are on the other side. I want to continue writing and drawing for you (Oh! How you loved my artwork.) and most of all, I want to continue loving. Your going away remains as a subject I stay away from. I will continue loving you until every stars burns out. It's hurts cuz it's insane yea we walk by and it's like I don't even know you. Like I never met you. We really messed up this time.
- Your ex best friend, hope you are dancing with angels now.
