"Writing my affliction"
My anger is bubbling over, taking control.
Like a hijacked plane.
Crashing into a sea of water.
Breaking into several pieces.
How do I gain control of something so strong?
That comes in several waves.
Knocking me in my chest to let it be known she's here and isn't leaving anytime soon.
That there's nothing worse than her in this moment.
That I have to focus on her.
Fight with her.
Play slave to an animate object.
And she won't stop
Till I'm on my knees
Given up.
Letting her evade.
She knocks with no mercy
Drawing back further each time,
With more force
Till I can't breathe.
Till I stop crying.
Like a punishment-
For feeling how I do.
