She's high right now and it's because of me.
You expect so much from me.
I can only offer so little, my heart doesn't carry that much room.
I'm not open to many.
I want to make you happy, but I can't rush myself into something I'm not ready for.
This is new to me, a new breath of fresh air.
A new adventure.
Even tho I loose my breath every time you intertwine your fingers with mine, and your smiles shoot a million butterflies up and throughout me I'm not quite there yet.
I love you like my best friend.
I look at you as my potential lover.
I feel like I could conquer the world with you sometimes, but I have to start alone.
I have to learn to love this life of mine before I let you whisk me away to a temporary euphoria.
Because I'm not promising you forever.
You know that, we've went over this.
We also planned the future, but I'm not quite done with my past yet.
I have a lot of molding and reshaping to do.
I hope you understand that.
I hope I'm worth the wait, I hope I can eventually pull off my mask and show you the real me.
Ky, not Ari.
The emotional, not the emotionless.
The lover, not the luster.
I have a lot of secrets to unfold, a lot of demons to unleash.
I hope you're prepared, I hope you'll look at me the same.
I hope the benevolence never fades.
