The 2 choices

Broken heart

It has been 1 week since that day when he witnessed it all. Isaka had given him a week off to come back to work with proper orientation. Tomorrow is the day when he has to go back to work, he was debating to himself whether to take another few more days off or to just face the fact that sooner or later he will bump into Kirishima. He probably knew its just a matter of time that he will have to hear everything from Kirishima. To accept the truth & move on, can he? He wasn't sure if he can handle to face Kirishima & hear the word 'break up' from him. He wasn't sure if he can hold back his emotion, and mostly... he wasn't sure if he can handle this heartbreak again from someone he loves truly. 'Brrr Brrr' just when he was having all these thoughts to himself, he received a message. Taking his phone from the table, he opens up and sees. It's a message from Takano, ' Free tonight? Drink? ' Right now, he didn't want to see anyone but definitely, he needs the beer to drink his sorrow away. At these, he replies ' yeah sure, I'll meet you at the usual bar. '

It's 8 pm, in the bar he supposes to meet Takano at 7 pm. 'Masamune sure it's slow, I wonder if work has held him up again' Yokozawa thought to himself.
"Gomen Yokozawa! Onodera lost his wallet and I was helping him to look for it, that why I was late" Takano was panting probably the cause of running all the way from the station to here. "It's fine. Did you guys found the wallet?" Yokozawa said in return to assure his best friend that he wasn't bothered by him being late. "Yeah..."
It was a moment of silence when Yokozawa was about to ask Takano what's with the rare occasion that he is asking him out to drink instead of taking his chance to spend with his lover, Takano cut in and said "I'll get straight to the point, did something happen between you & Kirishima?" Just hearing Kirishima's name, Yokozawa felt like his heart drop instant to his stomach. Turning his head away from his best friend, and he thought to himself 'why... why does Masamune have to mention his name right now...' thinking deep into his thought, Takano said again "Looking that you can't answer me, I guess I was right about it"
"What? What do you mean?" Yokozawa voice back, trying to sound oblivious to the situation.
"Yokozawa... how long do you think we have been friends for? Even you don't say it, do you think that I really wouldn't know that you and Kirishima are together?"
Yokozawa eye widens, gaping in shock. When he was about to say something in return, Takano continues "Don't try to deny, you and he have been getting closer these years. You even went to his house often and you only take care of people you fall in love with. If not, you would have mind your own business and not be so good to him & his daughter at all."
Yokozawa was speechless, he didn't know that he was so obvious. The seats there silently, gritting his teeth, not being able to say back to his friend.
Looking at Yokozawa furrowing his brow together, Takano reaches his hand out and put his hand on Yokozawa's shoulder and said "Yokozawa... you know you need to stop running away. I have no idea what happened between you & Kirishima but if you need a talk, I will always here for you."
Silent occurs again... Yokozawa gazes away, holding his cup up to his lip, and took a sip of the drink.
He opens & closes his mouth, he tried so hard to say something but it's like his voice is stuck in his throat, he wants to tell Takano everything, but he is afraid of trusting anyone now even his own best friends. He didn't want to voice out his worries and look pathetic about it. He didn't want to show his weak side anymore. He didn't want to feel so hurt anymore. But... But... He couldn't help it, everything had been too sudden and it hurt him so much just by thinking about it. "Yokozawa, how long are you gonna stay stubborn. When will it be that you can actually let go of those pride & shame of yours and tell me everything? I thought we were best friends..." Takano said again but this time, his voice was in lower tone & probably somewhat hurt. 
"I...i just didn't mean that way. It's just too sudden, everything was too sudden. I can't even handle it. I.. I just.."
"You just what? Yokozawa, say it." Takano grips onto Yokozawa's shoulder and said when Yokozawa finally voices out but stop halfway.
"I just can't take it when now his wife is back out of sudden and here I am having my heart broken by the one that fixed it! I want him to be happy! I want Hiyo to be happy! In order to do that, I need to let go but it hurts! It hurt so much that I don't know what to do anymore!" With the pressure from his best friend, he couldn't take it anymore and he shouted out, banging his fist on the table, lowering his head to hide his eyes that are filled with tears. Takano was shocked, he never sees him cry before. Never seen this kind of him before. Slowly, he let go out his hand that is gripping onto Yokozawa's shoulder and went quiet. Having the grip on his shoulder finally released, Yokozawa took a deep breath, wiping off the tears with his sleeve, he stood up from the chair, facing his back with Takano & said "I'm leaving, sorry to have you see this ugly side of me"
Takano couldn't stop him at all. Even he did, he wouldn't know what to say. He could only see him walked out of the store.

Reaching his station, he should have known that he could have bluff it off. He could have hidden his emotion better, he didn't know what has changed him so much that he can no longer hide his emotion as he did in the past. Walking in out of the station, he stops... 'ahh it's Kirishima... He really has changed me a lot' it clicks Yokozawa finally why he has changed so much from his past self. Thinking about Kirishima again, Once again Yokozawa felt tears sliding from the side of his face. Quickly, he covers this face with his hand, looks around to see if anyone notice it. It was a relief that no one was paying attention to him. Quickly, he wipes away the tears again with his already wet sleeve and runs back to his apartment.

Seating down on the crouch, Yokozawa was thinking deep down what could he do, and what does he want. He knew he said he wanted the best for the Kirishima's' but can he really smile and look at them to wish them happy. Does he still even have the right to even see them. Can he really let go? Can he really forget someone he finally falls in love with? Can he forget everything? Can he really put his heart to an end of it?
Gripping his shirt that is near the aching heart of his and he thought to himself about it. He knew what is this, it was the fear of losing someone you love deeply. He never knew it could hurt this much. More than the time Takano had rejected him. 
Slowly...he fell asleep on the crouch while having his heart in pain and crying to himself of the love that has ended.

Ok finally I have time to write again haha. It's a bit hard to figure out how should I write this part cause I really want Yokozawa to be heartbroken. I don't hate him ok? Instead he's my favourite. Just wait to see how the story goes and hopefully again, i hope you guys enjoy reading the story😅 once again, sorry for the poor english🙏🏻