Musicians Tale

Push Me Too Far

I can't believe Emerson asked me that! I'm still freaking out that he put a ring on my finger. Even sitting here laying in bed with him, I feel like I'm on cloud 9. I had a few things I need to do today. Today I'm releasing my new book, then we have an interview at 4 and then at 6 we have soundcheck and then at 8 we go on. This day is gonna be long with probably no food for anyone in the band. It's gonna be a rough one on all of us. I gently climbed out of bed but I quickly kissed Emerson's cheek. I got up and showered and changed. I gotta be there by 8. It was currently 7:20. I was lacking on time and like I predicted, had no time to eat. I left a note on the counter. "Going to publish the book! Wish me luck! Also when I get back please be ready for the interview. I can't risk it. Love ya guys!🖤" I put and ran out the door to Terrance's car. He greeted me with a warm smile. "Ready to publish and sign for your label and book today?" He asked and I nodded. He began to drive to the publisher. I sat in meetings forever for like 5 hours. I texted Emerson back and forth as the day went. We finally published it and Terrance and I left to go to the studio to sign my contract to Sumerian Records. We spent a good 2 hours talking touring, music production and my first album. I signed and I never thought I could be happier. Terrance and I walked back to his car and I laid back in his seat. "Congrats kiddo, you officially have joined Sumerian Records and Published your new book. I'm proud of you kid!" He said and patted my back. "Thanks. It feels good." I said and he smiled and he turned in the radio. "Wanna do some publicity shots?" Terrance asked on the way. "What do you mean?" I asked and he smiled. "I take a video of you singing to the radio." He said and I smiled. "Sure." He handed me his phone and I picked out The Light Behind Your Eyes. "Ready?" He said and I nodded. I tried to act normal as the soft music came into ear shot. I began singing like there was no tomorrow.
So long to all of my friends
Every one of them met tragic ends
With every passing day
I'd be lying if I didn't say
That I miss them all tonight
And if they only knew what I would say
If I could be with you tonight
I would sing you to sleep
Never let them take the light behind your eyes
One day I'll lose this fight
As we fade in the dark
Just remember you will always burn as bright
Be strong and hold my hand
Time becomes for us, you'll understand
We'll say goodbye today
And I'm sorry how it ends this way
If you promise not to cry
Then I'll tell you just what I would say
If I could be with you tonight
I would sing you to sleep
Never let them take the light behind your eyes
I'll fail and lose this fight
Never fade in the dark
Just remember you will always burn as bright
The light behind your eyes
The light behind your
Sometimes we must grow stronger and
You can't be stronger in the dark
When I'm here, no longer
You must be stronger and
If I could be with you tonight
I would sing you to sleep
Never let them take the light behind your eyes
I failed and lost this fight
Never fade in the dark
Just remember you will always burn as bright
The light behind your eyes
The light behind your eyes
The light behind your eyes
The light behind your eyes
The light behind your eyes
The light behind your eyes
The light behind your eyes
The light behind your eyes
The light behind your eyes
The light behind your eyes

I sang and I turned to the camera and laughed and covered it. He smiled and handed me his phone and showed me the video. "It's perfect." He said and I nodded. He took the phone back and posted it. "Congratulations to the newest soloist, Tara Blanc! This was caught when she didn't even notice it! @ tara.blanc" he posted. We finally arrived back at the bus at 3:30 and everyone was actually ready and Emerson sat on the couch with Axel talking. I smiled and everyone cheered once I walked in. "Congratulations to an overachiever!" They cried and I thanked them. The interviewer came in. "Hi, I'm Brett. I'm here to interview The Midnight Rejects?" He said and everyone stood up. "Hi, this is Tara, Jake, and Gage. I'm their manager Terrance." Terrance said and we all shook hands. Emerson went back to my bunk to draw and let us do the interview. "Hello! My name is Brett and today I am joined by The Midnight Rejects!" He said to the camera. "So we have plenty questions to ask you guys, including sleep schedules, relationships, family, drama and more! So let's get into it!" He said and Gage nodded. "So fans recently noticed a little drama occurred between the band. What exactly happened?" He asked and Gage frowned and began to explain what happened. It hurt me seeing him upset about it. "That's crazy, but everything is okay now correct?" He asked and we all nodded. "I'm glad that got all cleared up! So this question is more towards Tara but we also want your opinions on this. So Tara has recently been a busy bee and published a book and signed to Sumerian Records just this morning and has been a backup for Palaye Royale. Who has this affected the band and yourselves?" He asked and we all smiled. "I definitely think we have all been somewhat affected by the changes and things I have been doing lately. I think overall, we have adjusted to my crazy schedule." I replied and the boys nodded. "We are all extremely proud of Tara in so many ways. I mean she has kept us together for so many years and we can't be more supportive with her achievements." Gage said and Jake and Axel nodded. "I also wanted to say congratulations to you Tara. I see a ring on that finger, is that an engagement ring?" He asked and I blushed. "Unfortunately no, just a promise ring." I replied and everyone smiled. "So Emerson has really become a huge part in your life?" He asked and I nodded. "Oh definitely, he is my rock and my one and only. I wouldn't have come this far without him." I replied and he nodded. "I wish you 2 the best." He said and I nodded. "Thank you." I said and he nodded. "So let's talk about family because you guys have recently been talking about Tara's mother, Carrie Warner's death quite recently. What inspired you to sing Cancer in your mom's honor?" He asked and I sighed. "I guess the inspiration behind it was more of honoring what my mom asked me to do then anything. As many do know, she did pass away a couple years ago after battling cancer and drug addiction for a while. I lived with my Uncle Manson for a while, and he taught me how to rebuild myself and how to honor my mom while still doing what I wanna do. She had asked me when she was moments from passing that she wanted me to continue my music career and I said I would. I found comfort in music to cope and I found the song Cancer By My Chemical Romance was quite fitting to my situation. Gage originally was going to sing it but he couldn't sing the notes correctly so the band offered me the spot and I have been singing it ever since." I said and the reporter nodded. "I am so sorry for your loss by the way. What was life like living with Marilyn?" He asked and I nodded. "Amazing. I toured with him at such a young age and I learned my way around the guitar easily." I replied and he nodded. We continued the interview and then a crazy question was asked about Emerson and I. "Do you guys plan to ever get married in the very near future?" He asked and I smiled. "Let's ask him. Emerson!!" I yelled and he walked out and smiled. "I didn't know he was here!" The reporter replied and he laughed. "So the question was do you guys think there will be a wedding sometime in the VERY near future." The reposter said and Emerson nodded. "I mean, it sounds ideal at the moment, but I think we wanna take our time and enjoy each other before the question is asked. But I definitely will at some point." He said and the reporter smiled. "Well I'm happy for you both!" He said and I nodded. Emerson stayed for the rest of the interview as we dig into our pasts and played games. The interview was pretty good. "Thank you all so much for letting me interview you guys! It was a pleasure! Good luck to you two!" Brett said and he left. "Since we are all ready for the show, wanna go do something?" I asked and he smiled. "Hell yes! Like what though?" He asked and I smirked. "Skateboarding!" I said and his eyes widened. He grabbed his skateboard and so did I. We left and it was so much fun. I posted so many videos of Emerson being a weirdo but I also posted a ton of pictures of him and I. I love this man. We both posted a bunch of pictures of each other. We rode our skateboards back to the bus and it was so much fun. We held hands as we rode down the hill. We approached the bus and went inside. Everyone else was just finishing up their makeup. I fixed mine and I did Emerson's makeup. Everyone was taking pictures of us. Emerson and I walked out to go to the venue for soundcheck. He took my hand and smiled at the ring on my finger. We walked in and Remington and Sebastian were waiting. "Sorry guys." They shook their heads. "It's fine, let's get to it." Sebastian said and I nodded and plugged in my guitar. Sebastian and I started strumming and we played. It was a lot of fun. I had to run out for VIP meet and greets. I walked in and I met some fans. I met a ton of emo guys which I thought was cool. What hit hard was this one emo guy that walked in and started crying from being so damn happy. I don't think I have hugged a fan like that before. Till this day, I have never had a fan be this hysterical and happy to meet me. "What's your name?" I asked him and he looked familiar. "Uh Johnnie Gilbert." My jaw dropped. No fucking way! "No balls! Shit I'm a huge fan." I said and he smiled. "Well that is awesome." We took pictures together and he left. I was getting tired, I felt weak. I hadn't eaten much in the last week or so and now I'm going without anything at all today. I walked out of the VIP section and all I could feel was nauseous. I found myself running towards the bathroom and throwing up violently. The fuck could I have even been throwing up? I sat down on the cold hard ground and put my head against the stall door. Get with the program Tara! You have 2 shows in an hour! I need to go get some medicine to get myself under control. I sat up and flushed the toilet and washed my hands. I looked at myself in the mirror and seen the dark circles under my eyes like I hadn't slept in days. I pulled out my phone and called Terrance. Emerson was still in VIP meet and greets. The phone rang a few times and the voice rang the my phone. "Hello?" He said and I sighed in relief. "Hey, can you come get me or something? I'm not doing too hot." I said. "Where are you?" He asked urgency in his voice. "Girls bathroom second floor. I need some type of meds so I don't throw up all over the stage." I said and I heard him mumble to someone. "I will be there in a second." He said and I heard someone's footsteps coming. "Tara?" Terrance's voice called. "I'm here." I said and he came into view and crouched down to my level. He put his hand against my forehead. "Shit you're hot. Tara I don't think you should play tonight." He said and I shook my head. "I can't disappoint my fans." I said and he shook his head and picked up his phone. "Hey it's Terrance, I have got Tara on the floor right now throwing up badly." He said . "Yeah, she is burning hot. Can you bring someone up here doctor wise? This girl needs medical attention pronto." He said and I moaned in agony. My stomach began to turn inside out and I held my stomach in pain. He turned off his phone and sat on the ground with me. I leaned my head into his body as he hugged me. "It's gonna be okay." He whispered and I was almost in tears from the pain. Suddenly a team of security guards came in. They picked me up and brought me out and into a room that smelled sterile. "Someone call Palaye Royale and the band. They might not have a guitarist tonight." Terrance said and I moaned. Please I don't wanna disappoint my fans. The doctor came in. "Hi I'm Dr. Coscarelli. I'm gonna get straight into it, I'm gonna stick this thermometer in your mouth. I nodded and he stuck it in my mouth. He took it out and shook his head. 103. All of a sudden the pain became too much. I screamed bloody murder. I couldn't deal with the pain. "Put me out of my misery. I lived long enough!" Is all I could manage to fit out. Terrance had a tear pool in his eyes. The door opened and everyone stood in the corner of the room. "What the hell is wrong with me? Just put me out of my misery! This isn't humane!" I screamed and Emerson ran over to me. He grabbed my hand and looked me in the face. "Hey I'm here, it's okay." He said and I tried to calm down. The doctor looked at us. "I'm gonna test her for the stomach flu. It may be more serious than this though." He said and we all nodded. His stuck a wooden stick down my throat and took it away. "I will be fine, let me play." I said and Terrance shook his head. "Not in this condition you're not. Guys I'm sorry but you might have to live without Tara tonight. She never ever acts like this without a reason." He said and everyone nodded. I hit my head in agony. The doctor came back in the room. "Stomach Flu came back positive. We will get you some antibiotics immediately but I don't know how much you will be able to perform."He said and I nodded. "Just get it together quick. I wanna be there for both shows." I whispered and the doctor nodded and left the room. The boys came around the stretcher. "Hey kiddo, we completely understand if you can't play our show. We can turn the volume up as much as we can." Sebastian said and Remington and Emerson nodded. "I'm gonna try to be there, but I am so sorry if I can't." I said and they nodded. "Don't be sorry, your health comes first kiddo." Remington said and everyone agreed. The doctor came back in and gave the medicine. "Let her rest for a little bit and depending on your state, we will determine if you will play or not." The doctor said and everyone left the room besides Terrance and Emerson. I rolled over in the stretcher and let sleep overtake me. I woke up to a slight shake. Emerson was trying to wake me up for the doctor. "How are you feeling?" He asked and I sighed. "Better than I was before." I said and he smiled. He took my temperature and it read 99. "You can play tonight but don't go crazy. We will have medical team ready to get you after your shows okay?" He said and I smiled. I tried to stand up but failed so Emerson stood up and I put my arm around his wait and he helped me walk down the hall. "Don't overwork yourself tonight. Seriously. As soon as we are done tonight you are on bed rest until you're back to good health okay?" He said and I nodded. I hid my head into his side as we walked. I felt like shit, but I couldn't let my fans down. Emerson walked me into the venue and walked me over to set up. He helped me put on my ear piece and plug in my shit. Terrance and the Doctor stood by the sides watching. I leaned into Emerson a little as he supported me. "I love you, please don't hurt yourself out there." He said and I nodded. My eyes were groggy and ready for sleep. "2 minutes till The Midnight Rejects go on. Everyone be cautious of Tara. Serious medical condition is affecting a lot. Team on standby." My ear piece had recoiled in my ear. The doctor walked back to me with a button on a necklace. "Squeeze the button if you can't do it anymore." He said and I nodded and went out on stage. "Alright Tara go ahead." My ear piece said and I started playing the notes for Drink for Me. "Jake, Axel wall to your instruments." My ear piece said and they showed up at their spots. "Gage, walk on and do your thing." It said and Gage popped up from underneath the stage. Axel kept careful contact with me throughout the set. We ended our set with me. "Tonight, Tara almost couldn't play. We are so fortunate that she is still here and starting to do better. So, without further a do here is Tara with Cancer." Gage said and he began to strum. I sat down and started to sing the notes, but they were somewhat rough. I was sick and everyone knew it. I finished and everyone screamed my name and we left the dark stage. I walked off the stage and gentle hugs were given. Emerson walked me to the bathroom. He fixed my hair and I just leaned back. I felt terrible. "You did amazing for being sick." He said and I smiled. I sat on the sinks of the bathroom. I had my legs wrapped around his waist as he hugged me. "Tara and Emerson make your way back please." My ear piece said and I sighed. He sat me up and I jumped down from the sink. We walked back slowly together. I plugged my guitar in and let Sebastian go first and then I follow. Then Emerson came on and the Remington. We played till our hearts content. It came to the slow part of the concert. Ma Cherie. Emerson put his arm around me and kissed my cheek as he sang it to me instead of the crowd. I smiled and kissed his cheek. The lights in the stadium showed everyone. Remington and Sebastian joined us at the sides as Remington sang. Sebastian played acoustic this time. We bowed and walked off. "Alright, I'm taking my ill one to the bus. I'm gonna stay with her tonight. Could someone bring my clothes by please?" Emerson said and Remington nodded. Emerson and I walked back to the bus together. The doctor walked in and handed me the medicine. "Take it 3 times a day for max recovery. Good luck Miss. Blanc and Mr. Barrett." He said and he disappeared. I brushed my teeth and I had no energy to even change or take off my makeup so Emerson did it for me. I sat on the bathroom sink, allowing him to take off my makeup and change my clothes without a care in the world. He walked me to my bunk and crawled in with me. I rested my head on his hot chest. "I'm so sorry about today." I said to him and he shook his head. "Don't be sorry, you couldn't control what happened. I made a promise to be here throughout the rough patches too." He said and I smiled and let sleep overtake me for the night.