Musicians Tale

Time Only Ticks For You

The morning light suddenly had shined through the trees into my view, waking me up. I panicked as I look up at branches surrounding me. The sun just setting in calmed me down. I look around searching for my phone. I quickly find it in my pocket as I pulled out my phone. 2 messages

Emerson- hey, just making sure you made it home okay

Tara- I just woke up in a tree...😂

Emerson - how in the world did you do that?😂😂

Tara- I am one of many talents😂

I laughed as I put my phone away. Now I gotta get home. Tomorrow we go on tour!!! I jump down from the tree and land doing a summersault. I slowly get up and start walking to Axel's house to check on him. Toilet paper, solo cups, and dirty condoms were scattered around the ground. I walk up to the door and walk in because I know he is up. The house was a mess! I found Axel laying on the ground on his phone. "Hey dude." I said making him moan in agony. He clearly hadn't slept. Luckily Axel was pretty light. I grabbed him off the ground and took him to his room. I placed him in his bed and closed the door. I walked out of the trashy house to my car. I got in the car and started driving to my apartment. I gotta pack everything known to man. I walk in and place my keys down. I start packing every clothing item I have. I packed them all into suitcases. After I finished packing every item I knew I would need, I collapsed on my couch to watch Netflix. I'm excited for tomorrow morning. I get to hang out with Emerson and my band and that is all I care about. Our first concert date is Tuesday so we got time to adjust. I found myself bored so I grabbed my phone.

Tara - heyyy

Emerson- hi, what's up?

Tara- I had a question about tour and shit

Emerson- shoot

Tara-lol is you gonna come hang out with me?😂

Emerson- I don't know why I wouldn't 😂😂

Tara- 😂yay! Alright I'm gonna go cuz I need some sleep and our flight is in a couple hours

Emerson- alright. Can't wait to see you tomorrow 🖤

Tara- cya

Weird. I wonder why he sent a heart. I get off the couch and go into the bathroom to take off my makeup and change. I took my makeup off with a wipe, then I washed my face with my cleanser. I sigh as I looked at myself in the mirror, I hated my face without makeup. I walked over to the outfit I set out for pajamas, next to it was my outfit for the plane which was a lose long sleeved white shirt and a pair of loose sweatpants. I went to the bathroom and changed. Every self harm scar was showing and I hate that. My arms were covered in them. I usually cover them in makeup so nobody can see them. Axel is the only person that actually knows that I do. I quickly covered them and put my hair up into a bun and brushed my teeth. I went to my bed and covered myself in the sheets so I could get some rest before the morning set off. I shut my eyes. I'm just a few hours I would be on our tour bus getting ready for our first show Tuesday. I shut my eyes after I set my alarm.

The sound of music woke me up. I sat straight up out of bed and grabbed my outfit for today. I jumped straight into the shower no hesitation. I always get extremely excited when it's the day of tour. I let my conditioner and shampoo work it's magic as I sang to the Misfits. I'm happier than ever. I hopped out of the shower and began drying my hair. After I finished my hair, i did some simple makeup to finish off the look. I packed away all the hygiene stuff and sighed. This was it. The last time I was gonna see my apartment for awhile. I grabbed my keys and luggage and called Terrance. After 3 rings the voice answered. "Hello?" His voice said. "Hey where is the tour bus located?" I said wanting to hurry. "It's at the studio. Better come quick before the boys get to it first." He replied. Good. "Awesome see you in 5 minutes." I said and hung up. I took the elevator down to my car and put the luggage in. I hopped up to my car and started driving with my radio blaring. The studio was close so I started speeding to get there. I pulled into the studio and saw the bus. It was huge! I jumped out of my car and and grabbed my luggage. Terrance came over to help. "You ready to live with your friends for a little over a year in this things?" He said and I grinned. "More than ready." I replied as we walked over to the bus. We walked in and he lead me to the housing units. I picked the tallest and roomiest one. Terrance sat there laughing as I unpacked my bedding and put on the material. "Nice choice on the clothing and bed." He said with a grin. "Thanks." I said. I put my clothes away in my mini closet. I flopped down onto the bed. "Thank you so much Terrance for this amazing bus." I said and looked at him. "Thank you for making it this far, I wouldn't have a job without you." He smiled. Suddenly I heard someone. "Haha! I get to pick the first bunk!" Axel. He came up the stairs and seen us. "Aw come on! I got up early and everything!" He whined as Terrance and I laughed. He ended up picking the bunk above me. Everyone finally had gotten there and unpacked. But not yet. Terrance has a speech. "Well, congratulations to you all. You made it." Applause was created. "But, please make sure to be safe and respectful to the driver." Terrance said and we all nodded. "Well then, let the tour begin!" He said and we all hugged each other in excitement. The bus started and we all disbursed. Jake walked over to me. Drums. "Hey there, we all wanna talk real quick out in the kitchen." He said and I got out of bed and Jake followed. "Tara! We wanna talk about you specifically." Gage said. Vocals. "What did I do already?" I playfully said and they laughed. "Nothing yet, but we want you to sing for a show." Axel said and I turned red. "You want me to sing?" I said panicked. "Yeah, as you know we wanted to do a cover of Cancer from MCR and I just can't hit the notes. We want you to sing the song and I can play guitar while you sing." Gage said and I smiled. "Can I practice acoustic before I say yes?" I say unbelievably. "Sure. Go grab your acoustic real quick." Gage said and I nodded. I can't believe it, they want me to sing? This can't be real. I grabbed my guitar from my closet and walked back. I handed Gage the guitar as he would be playing if I said yes. I sat down on the floor laying on a piece of wood. I pulled up the lyrics. "You ready Gage?" I said and he played the intro. Here we go.
Turn away
If you could get me a drink
Of water 'cause my lips are chapped and faded
Help her gather all my things
And bury me
In all my favorite colors
My sisters and my brothers, still
I will not kiss you
'Cause the hardest part of this
Is leaving you
Now turn away
'Cause I'm awful just to see
'Cause all my hair's abandoned all my body
All my agony
Know that I will never marry
Baby I'm just soggy from the chemo
But counting down the days to go
It just ain't living
And I just hope you know
That if you say (if you say)
Good-bye today (good-bye today)
I'd ask you to be true (I'd ask you to be true)
'Cause the hardest part of this
Is leaving you
'Cause the hardest part of this
Is leaving you
I sang the last chord and applause erupted everywhere. I didn't realize I was crying till Axel came and hugged me. "That was beautiful Tara, you should say yes." He whispered as he whipped a tear off my cheek as I smiled. I felt good singing it, I knew what I was doing, Gage did as well. I knew my decision. "Well that was...good. Alright I will do it." I said and everyone smiled. I was a little overwhelmed so I went up to the bus driver. "Hi I'm Tara." I said and he smiled. "Robert. What could I do for ya?" He asked. "Would you happen to know if I can smoke on here if not?" I said not trying to be pushy. "Well you're really not supposed to but I will let you because I smoke like a freight train myself so." He said with a smile. "Sweet thank you!" I said and he nodded. "No problem." And with that I let him be. I went to my bunk and light my cigarette. I sighed as I took in the smoke, letting it take over me. It felt amazing. I hadn't smoked for like hours and I needed it. I pulled out my phone and walked out towards the boys. "Can I get a picture of us so I can post something?" I said and everyone nodded. I got in front of everyone and took the picture. "Wait we can smoke on here?" Jake said and I nodded. "Sweet." He said as he pulled out his own cigarette and I handed him my lighter. He lit his cigarette and handed me it back. "Thanks." He said and I nodded. I headed back to my bunk. I sat down in my bed and opened up Instagram to post.