I'm all out of Love

Chapter 27

NOP;
When they get some information about Thirdy nagmadali silang gumayak para puntahan just to look for him. Dani who needs to attend training nagabsent lang para makita niya kuya niya. Kief also who has a training din excuse his self and Alyssa na may date siya with her friend,  she cancelled it. While their mom & dad na may business trip also rebook their flight.

"Can you guys relax? Lahat kayo natataranta eh'' Kief said.

''Sinong hindi matataranta for how many months makikita nadin si Thirdy. We don't kung ano kalagayan niya diba?" Dani said.

''Osige na. Tara na at nagpabook na ako flight natin papuntang Visayas sa secretary ko at after 2hours flight natin at baka traffic na naman'' Bong said.

Bea;
Its been 10 months since Thirdy left without his words. After that incident tinapos ko lang training namin sa Philippines at bumalik ulet dito sa London. Nagpasya akong umalis para sa katahimikan ng buhay ko kahit papaano. And I also stopped what is between us with Anthony kasi dina din kaya ng sikmura kong patawarin sarilo kona dahil kay Anthony at ako naging ganun si Thirdy. Mas gusto ko muna maging magisa para mahalin ko sarili ko rather than puro nalang iba nasa isip ko.

Its already 3:30 am dito sa London at ang aga ko nagising dahil di ako makapakali because someone's bothering me. Diko alam kung ano yun. Basta natutulala nalang ako bigla.

I opened my messenger and Dani chatted chatted me. 7 hours ang pagitan ng oras sa London at Philippines.

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       Goodmorning ate! Ate may balita napo kay kuya Thirdy. Andito po kami ngayon sa Visayas located at Guimaras may nakakita po sakanya.  If u saw him baka mapapaiyak ka😭 Di kita kinokonsenya ate but ate  grabe. Dimo akalain ate na nasa may beach siya nakatira without knowing him na he's fighting for depression.
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I immediately contacted Dani. Mahal man roaming but I need to know how is he right now.

Me; Hello dans?

Dani;  Hello ate *sobbing* where here na kakarating lang namin kung san si kuya ngayon

Me; Kamusta siya?

Dani; Di siya nagsasalita ate. Tulala siya kinakausap namin pero wala padin.

Me; Gosh! Dani.

Diko alam sasabihin ko sakanya but Im pity for him.

Dani; Tas ate ampayat niya na. Di namin ineexpect na ganun mangyayari sakanya. Akala namin maaabutan namin ganun siya. Nakakatawang pakinggan pero mukhang yagit siya ate.

Me; *I started crying*

Dani; Ate, are you still with me? Umiiyak kabaa?

Pinunas ko muna luha ko at nagsalita muli

Me; I need to see him dans. Uuwi akooo

Dani; But ate you have some errands to do. Paano yung league niyo ngayon?

Me; Dans, madaming coaching staff dito. They can do naman without me eh.

Dani; You sure?

Me; Yes ading. Magpapa-book na ako.

Dani; Osige ate. Ingat ka ha?

Me;  Yes kayo din. Sige na I'll hang up

Then I ended up the call

I know its been 10 months since that day happened but I need to know kung ano na kalagayan ni Thirdy. Their is a time na sinisisi ko sarili ko kaya nagkaganun si Thirdy but they always say na its his decision.

Habang nagiimpake ako diko maiwasan na umiyak because I know how Thirdy endured those pain. Sana maging okay padin siya.

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When I arrived at Guimaras I contacted Dani sinabi niya sakin kung saan sila. Kaya nagmadali na akong pumunta sa Hospital

I asked in the lobby what room Thirdy is at
sinamahan naman din nila ako. I say thankyou to the nurse at iniwan din ako.

I knocked the door at pinagbuksan naman ako ni tita Mozzy. Magsasalita na sana siya pero niyakap ko ito agad at umiyak sakanya.

''I'm sorry tita'' the only words na nasabi ko.

she tapped my back para magtahan ako

'' It's not your fault Bea'' and we broked the hug

I saw the man I loved sleeping tightly kaya nilapitan ko ito.

''Mamaya ate pupunta yung doctor dito para sabihin kung ano ang kalagayan ni Kuya'' sabi ni Dani.

''You know what Bei after how many months nakita nadin namin siya.Nahirapan kaming hanapin siya. Its our first time na di namin siya kasama na nag celebrate ng Christimas even New year. We thought di namin makikita muli but luckily may taong nakakakilala padin sakanya na kahit ganyan na itsura niya, Unhealthy Thirdy'' sabi ni Kuya Kief.

''Di namin alam kung bat niya pinabayaan sarili niya. Huling sabi niya samin na he needs to love his self first pero ano nangyari. Di niya inalagaan'' Kuya Kief added.

I wiped my tears

'' I'm sorry for what I've done to your ading kuya. Kasalanan ko to'' pagsisi ko sa sarili ko.

''No wala kang kasalanan, Bea. Choice niya yun kaya wag mong sinisisi ang lahat'' Tito Bong said.

Doctor entered the room

''Good morning po. As of now his stable and okay na po but please help him to recover'' Doctor said.

''Recover? What happened to him?'' Tita Mozzy asked.

''Nagkaroon po siya ng brain fog. A braing fog is a symptoms of depression also known as cognitive disfunction. This can lead more severe
form of depression than those without the symptom. It include also several areas of mental processing. Keep it mind the effects of the CD wont necessarily disappear easily'' sabi ng Doctor.

''Pero pwede padin bumalik sa dati doc?'' I asked.

''Oo naman. With the help of  the people na naging cause ng pagkaroon ng CD niya. Those symptoms na kailangan niyong tugunan ng pansin ay Inability to pay attention, trouble with the memory, difficulty of executive functioning, and also his reaction time is affected also. The best way to treat that kind of brain fog is homebased po. May mga meds na kailangan niyang itake. Pwede pong every week na ipunta siya sa mga psychiatrist but sabi ko nga mas maganda kung home based'' Doctor advised.

''Doc what do you mean of trouble with the memory? Pwede siyang makalimot?'' I asked again

"Yes kaya kung saan meron siyang ginawa pero nakalimutan niya. Ang maganda gawin is he needs to write down na ginawa niya para doon niyo ipaalala sakanya o kayo na mismo ang gumawa ng paraan like taking videos para sa ganun hindi siya naguguluhan. Paalala din sainyo dun sa may difficulty of executive functioning is kapag may mga plano siyang gusto gawin pero he's worrying the possible outcome imotivate niyo siya na gawin padin niya. His reaction time affected also naging brain blocked kapag naguguluhan siya sa mga bagay bagay'' Doctor answered and give more information.

What if nakalimutan niya ako dahil alam ko sa sarili kona sa paglayo niya ako ang dahilan.

''He needs to rest. At please pakainin niyo siya ng tamang oras at tamang nutrition because he's unhealthy'' Doc said.

"Sige po, doc. Salamat'' Tito Bong said

''No problem. Pwede na siyang umuwi mamayang hapon'' Doc said at nagpaalam nadin.

Tita Mozzy started to cry

''I know Thirdy strong. Malalabanan niya to kapit lang tayo at magtulong-tulungan.'' Ate Ly motivated us

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