The Staircase to Alexander's Heart

Chapter five

" where would you like to have lunch Monica?"
" maybe we can go have pizza, how does that sound?"
" pizza it is then." He says turning back to the road.
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As we took a sit beside the window, a waiter comes to take our orders.
" what can I get you guys?"
" can we get one margarita pizza and tuna salad"  Xander speaks for the both of us. I don't mind his choice but am amazed he didn't even ask my choice.
" how about some drinks?" The waiter asks my way.
" I would love some 7up." I look at Xander waiting for his answer.
" I will have the same."
The waiter left and Xander was writing something in his black notebook again. Forgetting that I was even here.
He closes his notebook and looks up at me.
" you will love the pizza here, especially when it comes with the tuna salad. But if you don't like it we can order something else. But first you gotta taste this."
" well I love margarita and I surely don't hate tuna so I will give it a try." I answer back smiling.
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As we got into the car, my stomach hurts because I ate too much. Xander was right he really knows how to choose the best ones.
He was driving to another road so I got confused. I thought he was gonna drop me at my house but am mistaken. But I really have no clue on where we are going.
" where are we going Xander?" I ask looking at him.
" well am taking you to my most favorite place around here. I hope you like it. I never really brought anyone up there." He looks sad saying this. " I actually never got to bring anyone there, since I don't have any friends."
I felt my chest hurt at that moment. This man is really lonely. And everyone just left him because he has a simple disease. 'People of this world are so cruel.' I thought to myself.
" if you don't mind me asking, where are your parents Xander?"
It took him a while to answer my question.
" they live in Seattle."
It's good to know that they are alive.
" well do you keep in touch with them?"
" not really. It's a long story."
" I have time." I chuckle and he smiles at that.
" I really don't feel good speaking about them. We will talk another time."
Even though this guy has no memory, he has the same personality every day. He lets me know that he is gonna meet me another time in between conversations. Which is a good thing actually. After all my crush is looking forward to seeing me.
Just the thought made me blush so red.
" sure, anything that helps you sleep at night." I answer turning my face to the other side to hide my now tomato looking face.

After we drove for about an hour we got to this really really large building. I mean it's huge. It's not a place where things are crowded. There are a few buildings out here and there but not the part of New York we live in.
" where are we?" I ask looking at my surroundings. I just hope this man doesn't murder me in this abandoned place.
" you'll see. Just trust me." He grabs my hand and pulls me towards the building.
" hey Richard, how are you?" He greets the guard at the front of the building.
" am good sir, you want me to escort you to the top?"
" no need for that, am no stranger Richard." He pulls me into the building and we got into the elevator.
The building might have 30 to 50 stairs upward.
As we were inside the elevator, he held my hand closer and tighter....I took a look at him and he was already staring at me.
He came behind me and put his hands on the lower part of my back. It was becoming really hard for me to breath.
Just as I was thinking he was gonna do something stupid he brought his hands to my neck and around my collar bone...he brought a strand of my hair to the back and brought his face closer to me.
I could feel his breath on my skin, he got closer to my ears and whispered. " what's wrong? ... why are you breathing so hard?"
" umm..I ...I..." as much as I tried I couldn't get anything out of me.
" do I make you uncomfortable?" He asks getting closer to my neck, I can feel his lips almost touching my bare skin.
" not really..it's just.." I couldn't really speak, what is this guy doing to me. My whole body got numb at that moment.
" are you sure? Cause from the way am looking at it, your body speaks different."
" am sure." I managed to get that out with out stuttering.
" how about when I do this?" He enclosed my waist with his hands and pulled me to his chest. So at this moment my back is attached with his front...
Before I say anything the elevator opened and rescued me from whatever you call the situation I was in.

What made me caught my breath again was the view in front of me. We went inside and he intertwined our hands together and walked inside. It was a very large room with a couch, and a fire place, there was a kitchen on the other side of the room. I was amazed.... the carpet around the couch was white fur... it was completely amazing. It was beautiful. The lights around the corner...was just breathtaking.

But what caught my eye more than the place was the view in front of the couch. You could see the whole New York City through the window.
" wow..." I nearly whispered but unfortunately Xander heard me and chuckled.
He left out to the kitchen...
" have a seat Monica." He says from the kitchen.
I took a seat at the couch and started to admire the view ahead of me.
It was just amazing.
I see Xander coming back with two glasses and a wine. He placed them at the floor and went back again to get some blankets.

He sat dangerously close to me and poured the wine in our glasses.
" here you go..." He says handing me my glass.
" thanks." I mumbled.
He took his glass in his hand and put the blanket over our legs.
We stayed like that for a few minutes just admiring the view and silence.
After what seemed like seconds but in actual reality was 15 minuets, Xander turned his face to me and looked at me.
" what?" I ask.
" nothing.." He looks away.
" oh come on....are we gonna start to play hide and seek now? Just spill it out. What's with your look?" I further questioned him.
" well I was just wondering.....wondering how I came to know a girl like you. Am no body. And here you are the most happiest and carefree person I ever met but still very brilliant and wise young lady. I have done terrible things in my life and I don't even deserve to be friends with you. I may not remember how I spent the rest of my time with you, but for what I remember I liked you. I read the journal I have written the previous day. You really have changed something in me." He smiles and then looks back at the city. " I was a very lonely man. Who didn't even deserve happiness, but for the first time in 15 years I became happy again. And I know that because when I read my journals, it was yesterday that I wrote about me being happy."
I smile at what he said. Am glad I brought meaning to this person's life.
" you're not no body. To me you're Xander. My favorite customer....the one that comes everyday and sits by the window...you're the one who dresses like a model but surely isn't. You live a very luxurious life, drive an amazing car and all but never even smiled once. You're the guy who asks my name everyday I take your orders. You are the guy that gets me excited to work at the cafe. You are the guy that holds so much truth to the pain I see in your eyes. To me you're the guy I wait eagerly to see everyday." By the time am done saying this, he looks at me with amazement showing in his eyes. " I may not know what you have done to think so miserably of your self that you even think you don't deserve happiness, but from what I see, you seem like more than a great person to me."

" why do you make things more complicated?" He asks looking at me.
Am bewildered by his question.
" what do you mean?" I ask cause am really confused at the moment.
" you're beautiful, your long brown hair, your gorgeous face and that amazing curves of yours....you are in general astonishing. But your personality is something I have no words to explain. I only remember what we have done today but from what I see I can sense yesterday too. And the things you said about me just a second ago.....I mean that's something every single man in this world wishes for.............and even after you knew what deep shit I was in you are still willing to be my friend. So I thought this is a miracle." He takes a few breaths.
" all in all, what am trying to say is, I always tend to hurt the people who love me and the people who are trying to help me so that's pretty much the reason why I have no friends or family at all. And as I was trying to stay away from you, you draw me closer and closer..... making it difficult for me to stay away from you. That's what I meant."

Am surprised. This guy is clearly gonna be the death of me.