Some Nights ( Tony Stark x adoption fanfiction)

Miscarriage

Mishal's P.O.V.

I got up carefully in the morning and checked the time; it was going to be twelve in a couple of hours, so I had time to spare. I slowly popped my shoulder back in breathing heavily for a few minutes before getting in the shower. After a half-hour I waddled out feeling unsteady, the pain from my abdomen was gradually getting worse and I had to breathe through it after a couple of minutes of walking.

I grabbed my favourite vanilla lotion off the shelf, trying to make myself think about something else lathering myself in cream. I wore whatever clothes that had finished drying on to feel some more warmth. I cleaned up the living room and washed all the dishes and took a turn on cleaning stains in the carpet. When I finished, I looked around at my handy work; my body protested against the movement. It was time to go. As I left I snatched up my phone and wallet; I couldn't bend down right now cause it hurt too bad, so I wore flip flops and headed out the door. 

After a treacherous walk to the tower, I waited in the lobby, not knowing how I could see my kids. Everyone who passed me stared at me and muttered something under their breath. I could recognise some people who came to me last night, they just looked away as I stared at them. Looking down at my clothes compared to everyone I else guess I wasn't in attire to be here.

I'm an idiot I could text Peter that's I'm down here, I quickly sent him a message and fiddled my fingers waiting for him to get me.  I waited a bit looking down then saw some boots standing in front of me, I peeked up seeing Captain America looking right at me.

"Uh hi, you're Mishal, right?" He said, directing his hand out, I accidentally flinched, hoping he didn't notice I grabbed his hand and got up slowly.

"Yes, that's me". I said quietly, catching Captain America staring at my neck, he rubbed the back of his neck and spoke again.

"Tony sent me down to get you, I'm Steve, Peter would've come, but he's having lunch with Freya and Sky and so is the rest of the Avengers. They're amazing you know, you've done a brilliant job of raising them." He said eagerly.

I blushed, feeling proud "Oh, thank you so much!" He steadied me, and we walked to the lift. It may have been a little awkward, but it felt safe standing next to a man like this, I feel like if something did happen to me, they were safe. I winced again, wrapping my arms around my stomach, the pain was becoming a bit too much to handle. I took long breaths, trying to subside the pain. When I looked up, the doors were open, and Steve was frowning waiting for me.

"I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to make you wait!" I said, rushing out of the elevator.

"It's okay, are you okay? Oh and this way", he motioned while walking down a hallway; I followed close behind him telling him that I was okay. He wouldn't notice the difference anyway, as we got closer to the end door I heard Freya yelling at someone for stealing her pancakes and Sky giggling in the background. I missed them laughing like this; they didn't need to think of any consequences.

Steve then opened the door, and everyone looked my way, it was scary. I thought they could see right through me, and maybe I should've worn a turtle neck instead.

"Ma! Mummy! Maaaaa!" My twins yelled, running to me, embracing me softly.

"Ka tumhe chot laga!?" They both yelled they're eyes searching my body.

"Hum acha hai, nai chinta karo," I said hugging them again.

"Sub koee dekhe hai, ghare jai ke baat kareg" they both nodded. 

"You guys left your lunch," I told them smiling, they quickly ran back.

"Sorry, we didn't mean to leave our food," they said politely, everyone told them it was ok and dispersed back to the table. Tony came over and helped me up; I could see they were all watching me from the side.
I hoisted myself up from his support, and he whispered: "Friday translated what you said, so... your kids know what's going on... are you okay to be here? Also, I told everyone that you slipped on alcohol and had a bloody nose" I nodded following him to the table and taking a seat.

"Hello everyone, I'm Mishal. Thank you very much for taking care of Sky and Freya." I said, smiling.

"Mother of twins, I'm Thor!"The bearded man shouted, making me flinch.

"Thor, inside voice remember?" Tony said, raising his eyebrows. I scanned the table starting from the twins. Steve, Natasha, Bruce, Thor, Tony, Pepper, Peter, then me, Bucky, and Clint; Loki was on the couch, half turned and listening to what was going on. Each person gave me a warm welcome and shook my hand if they could reach me.

"So, what's with the black eye?"Nat asked me curiously.

"Oh, is it that bad? Uh well, I slipped on alcohol and hit the side of the table, then I had a bloody nose, haha!" I said smoothly. Tony just glanced at me sympathetically then change his expression when he caught Peter and Steve staring at him.

"Its a shiner, I'll tell you that," she said, staring intently. I shrugged and looked away from her eyes.

"Mishal, is your dad gonna have any more buddy nights this weekend?" Peter asked me.

"Uh well, maybe tonight or tomorrow night? I'm not sure but don't worry; you don't have to look after Freya and Sky I got it covered" I said, smiling his way so he wouldn't worry. I clutched my stomach tighter, trying to contain myself, the bleeding was heavy from last night, and I knew now that I was miscarrying, but this was much more intense than last time. I tried to distract myself by drinking water, but that wasn't going too well as my hands were shaking, I quickly put down the glass making conversation with Peter.

"So Peter, are you staying over at Tony's for the weekend? And also where is Spiderman? I want to thank him for picking up these two." I asked, hoping he was around.

Peter stared at me stammering "Uh-uh well, Spiderman is a kinda a-a-a kid, and he has a curfew and has to be home and stuff, so he's not here in the weekends sorry Mishal!"

"Oh, that's a shame, please thank him for me, will you? I owe him again" I said sighing.

"O-of course!" Peter exclaimed, eating his lunch again.

"I better go, I need to finish the clean up from last night, sorry guys. Sky, Freya I'll meet you down in the lobby? I know you want to say bye to everyone!" I said, getting up slowly, I needed more rest and more pain killers.

"I'll take you down, so you don't get lost, Pete brings the kids soon," Tony said, guiding me back towards the elevator. Once we got in, he asked me, "Are you okay? You don't look good at all".

I wasn't sure if it was okay to voice my feelings; no one has looked out for me like this before. "I'm having a miscarriage, I'm pretty sure. But it has never been so bad, and everything hurts, so I want to rest.. Sorry, Tony, I don't know what else to say. If I say I'm 'fine' like usual then I've covered the problem behind the fog, and no one bothers to look a little closer, you know? Though I don't want to be a bother to you, I will be fine and back to a semi-healthy state eventually." I said to him quietly, more so I didn't know what would push me over the edge to end it, weirdly enough it probably wouldn't be in pain, but the feeling of Sky and Freya being okay without me, I think. I watched Tony clench his fists then unclench them.

"Friday, call Mishal's phone right now."

"Yes, sir, calling Mishal's phone" my phone started buzzing, it was kind of amazing.

"That's my number, save it and if you need anything don't hesitate to call me. Also, I'll text you some other avenger numbers, if you cant reach mine. Also, also I have called a cab for you," he said, wringing his hands.

"Thank you for everything Tony," I said sitting down on the bench again, he sat next to me waiting for peter, it wasn't as awkward as when I was with Steve, but Tony let me focus on breathing deeply.

"Ma! Were here, let's go, "Freya said, holding my hand. I got up and said my thank-yous once again and took hold of Skys hand. We walked out towards the cab heading back. The twins excitedly told me everything they did with everyone and how much fun they had. At least they were experiencing happiness somewhere else.

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Hello, so um I was born in Fiji I never learnt Shud Hindi, we talk in slang Hindi. It's like saying I don't speak proper old English just NZ English. What I said up there was: Where did you get hurt. I'm fine, don't worry and everyone is watching, we will talk at home. Other than that, thank you for reading, I much appreciate it. Leave comments if you like or votes ;)  - Marelyn