I don't think I trust anyone

Part 19

-y/n'S POV-
Ruel and I were stood in my room very close to each other. I could feel his warmth against my body. I must have zoned out of a minute or so, I was just dazed with how perfect he was.
Ruel: nervous?
Y/n: n-nope
Ruel just smiled and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me into a hug.
His embrace made me feel safe and cared for. Ruel softly played with a strand of my hair and I lauded my head gently on His chest. I could hear his heart beating and I began to think, what are we? Are we friends? Or more? Are we friends that kiss sometimes?
Y/n: hey Ruel what are we?
Ruel: what do you mean?
Y/n: like us. What is this?
Before Ruel could answer my mother came bursting through the door.
Good timing mother.
Mandy: y/n...oh hi Ruel
Ruel: hey
Y/n: yes?
Mandy: well we're having the Van Dijk's over for lunch but Ruel is obviously already here.
Y/n: ok
Mandy:can you please give me a hand?
Y/n: yeah I'm coming.
I let go of Ruel and he just stands there a bit confused on what I just asked before my mum walked in.
I walk into the kitchen and helped my mum with lunch. The Van Dijk's came over and I let them in. Ruel was still in my room doing who knows what.
Coco: hey y/n
She hugged me and then went into the kitchen to see my mum.
I said hello to Kate, Ralph and Sylvie then we all went to the dining room. My dad came in from outside and said hello to
everyone. Ruel then came out of my room and sat down at the table.
My mum got me to pass plates out and Ruel looked at me then down to his hands where he was messing with his hands.
Mandy: y/n you can sit next to Ruel.
I looked at me and felt the tension an I sat down.
Our parents made conversation and Ruel and I sat in silence.
David: so Ruel how has your music been going?
Ruel: yeah ugh pretty well
David: thats good lad
Ruel then looked at me briefly then back to my dad
Ruel: yeah I've been writing some more songs and shit
I hit Ruel's arm as he swears
Ruel: ugh stuff I met stuff
I quietly giggle to myself as he try's to fix what he said.
David: ohh yeah we herd that
My dad chuckled but there was this weird tension between Ruel and I still.
Coco and Sylvie talked to me about things but I ignored conversation with Ruel.
I helped my mum clean up and everything. Then Ruel walked up to me
Ruel: y/n can we please talk?
Y/n: umm sure
Ruel: not here though
He grabbed my hand and pulled me out the house.
Y/n: where are we going?
I ask as Ruel pulled me along with him
Ruel: just to the beach, please I really need to talk to you and the beach helps me clean my head
Y/n: ok let's go
Rule and I walked to the beach and it was actually the first time in a while where we didn't hold hands while walking. I found it strange and like I was a bit lost with out his touch.