All That We Are...

Chapter 14

Carter

Rolling onto my side I watch Henley as she sleeps. I've done this ever night since she got sick and ever night I find something new about her while she sleeps. Like how she opens her mouth a little when she's in a deep sleep or how the covers have to be over her whole body no matter how warm it is, once she's in a spot she doesn't move and sometimes she makes facial expressions almost like she is having a dream. Last night I was laying right beside her and fell asleep far to quickly to watch her. I debated on weather I should of laid with her or not. The idea of being closer to her and sleeping in an actual bed seemed way to nice to pass up.

The sun is just starting to come up it's still early in the morning. I really should get up but I can't seem to stop looking at her, her eyes flicker under their lids and she sticks her tongue out to wet her plump lips that I'm now trying to restrain myself from. After abruptly kissing her yesterday those lips are all I can think of. They had been soft and smooth and tasted minty.

"Hey." Her sleepy voice says bringing me out of my memory.

"Hi." Is all I can say back.

"Did you sleep good?" She asks as she stretches her arm gradually above her head and she makes a scrunchy face.

"It's been hard to sleep lately, last night was better though." I roll onto my back having to look away from her. "How's your side?"

"It feels pretty good." I see her from the corner of my eye lifting her shirt a little bit. "It didn't even bleed through out the night. That's good right?" Leaning up on my elbow I hover over her and look down at her bandage then grab her shirt and lower it so she's covered up. She looks so innocent just laying there like she has absolutely no clue how she is effecting me. I don't even really know what she's doing to me, all I know is I can't act on it now not with everything going on.

"Sorry." She whispers so quietly I almost don't hear it.

"Henley don't be sorry about anything. I should be sorry you where just showing me your wound and I made it awkward." She just looks into my eyes trying to figure out what I'm talking about.

"Oh, I made you uncomfortable. I didn't mean to. I just thought maybe you wanted to see it." She looks so innocently at me that it makes me feel like an even bigger ass for acting the way I did.

"No I do, I'm glad you showed me. I just don't want what happened yesterday to happen again." She pulls the blankets to cover herself up. Turning my head I stare at her and she won't look at me, her checks start to turn red and I know she's embarrassed, she took what I said the wrong way. Yanking the blankets off of her she gasps in surprise.

"Don't, don't ever be ashamed of this body. Whatever you have going in that pretty little head of yours stop it. I just can't, we can't be that way with each other." Looking down her body I see the rest of what she's wearing which is not much a pair of shorts that I'm sure barley cover her ass and a pair of pink fuzzy socks.

"Because of Jessica right?" She sits up tensely holding on to her side. Before she goes to stand I grab her wrist to keep her in place.

"I don't know what your problem is with this chick but there is nothing between us. There was this one night she came into my stall in the barn but nothing happened." Not sure why I'm explaining myself to her. I let her go as she stands and I was right you can see her ass pecking out of the shorts.

"Yeah I'm sure. "nothing" always happens when it comes to Jessica." She walks to the door and I find myself now scrambling off the bed to stop her. Putting both hands on the door beside her head she turns to look at me but crosses her arms.

"Why are you so jealous of her?"

"I'm not we just have a past. I don't even care. Now that I know you had sex with her I'm ten times less attracted to you." She says to me and I grab my chest sarcastically like she just broke my heart.