Hopelessly Hopeful Danny Worsnop Fanfic

The Reason Why She Let The Devil In

I'm terrified of this "boyfriend" I have been with him for a year n 9 months. He was sweet at first than then got violently controlling and possessive. I've about had enough which direction I break is going to be my downfall or freedom. Danny has tried writing to me for the last 3 months I never open them I just send them back. What am i to do? Everytime i try to leave it gets ugly and i end up either in the hospital or waiting for my injuries to heal without much help only what i can do at home by myself. I look in the mirror and see the hand print bruise from last night and cuts n gashes that i stitched up on my own from three nights ago. I plug in my ear phones and open my music list which i my playlist combined with the playlist Danny had made me the last time i had saw him which came in the mail about a week after on a CD the only letter from him ive opened. I sit and apply my make up trying to cover up the hand print i realize i havent even hit play on my ipod i click the botton on my ear phones and Face down by the red jumpsuit apparatus starts blaring into my ear

Hey girl you know you drive me crazy
One look puts the rhythm in my hand
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down

Cover up with make up in the mirror
Tell yourself it's never gonna happen again
You cry alone and then he swears he loves you

I look in the mirror and make my mind up. I finish putting on my make up n long sleeve shirt and drive 2 hrs away from home to the best gun shop around. I fill out all the paper work and buy me a glock. Now before you ask no I'm not gonna kill him or me, but if it gets to that point i much rather be safe than sorry. I head back home and grab my mail. I have a huge pile of mail i throw the flyers away an start to flip through the letters 17 from Danny. I walk to the only room that i have a hidden key to and i take a deep breath and look around. I sit on the bed and try to think if Evelyn was alive what kind of guy would i want her to look for? Better yet who would she tell me to look for and who would have completed our little family. if Everleigh was alive would Danny and I be together? I break down crying i miss them everyday im just glad they never saw me like this. I don't know if i want to talk to Danny ever again last time we actually did it wasnt good.

It's been a year n 6 months I last talked to or seen any of the guys. Well no thats not true I ran into Danny about three months ago.

&%&%& Flashback &%&%&

I'm rushing around trying to find all the cleaning products and some type of weird seafood stuff that my boyfriend Dave wants. I need to get home soon so i can make the house spotless and a perfect dinner for him or else.... well lets just say it wont look pretty for me. Im rushing like crazy while not even paying attention to where im going that i actually bump into someone.

"Oh my goodness im so sorry i didnt mean to...." the guy looks up and I'm faced with non other than Danny. My head starts spinning my stomach is in knots my brain is going 150mph a second my mouth wont form any words or at least not the ones my brain wants to use my heart feels like it's about to hit a sudden stop without any slow down or continue to beat so loud id be amazed if other people can't hear it. To top it off my legs are frozen in their spot, and my hands won't stop fiddling due to nerves.

".....Danny."

He looks up to meet my eyes with his.

"Addy. How have you been I haven't seen you since we had that fight a year after Eveleigh's funeral. I stopped by her grave yesterday and planted lilies on her grave and prime roses and Evelyn's grave.

I realize i haven't said a damn thing, and now here he is standing there looking me over. My bet was very the best of me, and without thinking i take my sleeve in my hand while trying to move my hair back out of my way due to it sticking to my face thanks to the tears running out of my eyes at the mention of my daughters. As i do this i accidentally end up wiping off some of my make up without realizing.

"Addy are you okay?"

"I'm sorry I hit your cart. I didn't mean to, but I have to go."

I start to move, but he grabs my arm and has me let go of the cart.

"Adeline, what happened to you? Who hit you?"

I stay quite till the realization goes me he sees the bruises on my cheek and eye. I mutter under my breath about my stupidity for using cheap makeup.

"Addy..... Addy please don't tell me you are dating the jerk who did this to you."

"I'm just clumsy, and had too much to drink one night and I'm not sure exactly how i got the black eye just woke up with it. My...my boyfriend...is great.. he treats me just as he should."

"You can leave him behind Addy. You can leave all this behind and come back home. I... the guys... We all miss you. Not a day goes by that Ben doesn't worry about how you are. You should give him a call sometime he still sees you as his little sister, and is a dad now."

"I have to go I need to clean his house... I mean our house and i want to start dinner soon. Tell Ben congrats and I'm happy for them and I'm doing just fine."

I get out of there as fast as I can.

Flashback Dannys p.o.v.

"God damn it Danny would it kill you to stay home for one day with me?!?"

"Why would I?! You are always miserable the voices in your head are getting worse! I can't take it anymore, i was better off single. Those were the good days fuck any girl i wanted to. You never want to be touched you barely eat. This relationship is horrible maybe i never should have signed you out of mental health you'd still be their problem! I've never been so happy in my life that the pregnancy test trials came back negative today!"

As soon as the words left my mouth i hated my self. I love Addy and all she wanted was one night or just a few hours alone with me . Fuck i barely sleep here anymore she left one lonely place just to enter another one. I wish i would have planned a beautiful dinner and asked her to marry me like ive been trying for so many weeks now. Now i bet you're thinking you idiot why wait so long and now you've done it at least it can't get worse maybe you can repair this. It can get worse im leaving in 15 minutes for a year long tour. Yes im that much of a dick my best friend/ girl friend ask me to spend at least 3 hours home alone with her the night i leave for a year and i blow her off n make a huge fight. To top it all off we thought she was pregnant n i threw it in her face that she isnt. I look at her and she has her hand raised ready to smack me across the face with a shattered and heart broken look in her eyes and on her face. She puts her hand down walks away till the bathroom. I watch her wipe the tears and make up off and reapply her foundation and takes her contacts out and puts on her best fake smile n just as she finishes the guys arrive and knock on the door. After an hour of all of us talking and laughing we get on the bus. I manage to snap a photo of her before we leave and i see everything ive ever said wrong to her in her eyes. I pull my phone out and try to call her and text her to no avail. I let the best thing in my life just walk out due to foolish pride, cold Feet and a broken heart