Everything Is Lost (RICK GRIMES TWDFF)

Chapter 5- I Don't Need You

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   I didn't   sleep. I drempt about the things I did to people then about walkers. What i did replayed in my mind then how walkers ripped me up because of the things I've  done. That was my punishment but I've  only done it to survive.

   When do I ever sleep though? There is no such thing as a peaceful  sleep...if you were dead then yes.

  Rubbing my eyes, I notice Clementine  still asleep.  Next to her is the window and taking a guess, I'd  say it is 7am.

   The growling in my stomach causes me to fully move and make my way to the kitchen. The cold floor on my bare feet makes me miss winter. In winter, the walkers slow down  and makes living with them easier but scavenging even harder.

  "You're  up." Luke sits at the table with Carlos and another little girl.Nodding, i take a seat next to him.

  "How's  your leg feeling?" Carlos asks. My leg? I forgot about my leg.  The medication and the stitching really fixed it up. 

   "It actually  feels....great." I smile a little to myself. I look up to the girl that looks a little younger than Clem. "What's  your name?" I ask friendly but i get interrupted  by her father.

  "Remember what i told you when I fixed you up?" I open my jaw a little in shock. Do I look like a bad person too?

  "Here how bout some pancakes. You're  just in time for serving." Luke offers.  I just stare at him while he prepares breakfast and the little girl gets out of her seat.  She then brings Clementine.

   "So Amia, what's  your story?"  Before I can put food into my mouth, Luke decides to starve me with questions i don't  feel like answering. 

   "I-I don't  have a story." I have a second to plop a piece into my mouth. "Thanks for this Luke." I just want to keep to myself until I'm  good enough to go.  I think i can leave today though. When i left with them, I didn't  get to do one thing I intended  to do.  Something i cannot do alone. 

  "Everyone has a story. I was taken care of by a stranger when my parents went to vacation.  They died but he was there for me. He was like my father.  His name was Lee. He toughened  me up for the walkers."

Clem shares.  "So... tell us your story."

  I look at all of them and what catched my eye is Carlos sending his daughter to the living room alone.

  I don't  feel like sharing my background. My life before this. Anything. "My past doesn't  do any good to me now." I take a sip of my water while look at Luke once again. In return, he gives me a depressing look.  In quick motion, he grabs my wrist gently. "We've  all had back stories. Some aren't  pleasant." I remove my wrist from his grasps. He's  been touchy ever since i got here.

   He notices the uncomfort it brought me and coughs.  So instead of embarrassing  him,  i tell my story. 

  "I uh...well first, I'm  not from here.  I'm  from Michigan. I just came down to Florida to visit family. " I chew down a piece.  "I was a chef, working day and night but it was something I loved. Anyways..." They're  still looking at me like a new book that just hit. "I was with my family and one of my brothers came late. Well, outside of my other brother's  house  was a car chase and my brother Bryan got in the middle of it.  It was...bad" I can feel my art ache and my tears about to fall like a water fall.

  "He ended up in the hospital but a day later was when this hit. I had nieces and a nephew.  Siblings  and I don't  know where they went.  I was at my hotel and they were...well.... I found one of my nieces, my nephew and their parents as one of them" I begin to choke. "I don't  know if Sky made it or even if Bryan made it." I finish by Inhaling a deep breath. 

"That's  why I'm  leaving today." They all stop eating and stare at me like they've  seen a ghost.  "I couldn't  do it alone but now, i have to.  Im going  to the hospital to see if my brother is there.  If he is, then i want to put him out."

  "The hell you aint!" A male voice startles us all. I turn around quickly. "Are you going to stop me?" I get up turning to face Pete. "Come on you guys. Pete you're  making this worse."

  "You're  sticking up for someone you don't  even know? You're  pathetic. Nick knows more than you."

  "I said I'm  leaving and if you're  going to stop me then that's  by killing me.  I have my keys.  I have everything I need to go find people I've  lost!" I want to cry.  I really do.  I want a shoulder to lean on.  A hug to comfort me but there is no such thing as a caring person.  At least not in this world anymore.

"THEYRE DEAD AND YOU KNOW IT!" He yells with his dead bunny in hand.  That's  it, I've  had enough of this.  I get out of my chair, making my way to the front door. 

"Woah woah woah are you actually leaving?" They all followed me to my truck. 

  "Thank you Luke and Clem for taking care of me. You two are the only ones who treat me like I'm  human!" I put the key in the ignition  but before i can start it, both Clem and Luke grab my attention.

"I'm  going with you."

"What the hell is your problem you two? You can't  leave."

  Luke surprises me with his attitude  and actions towards Pete.  He pushes him against the house wall.

  "You were never like this Pete! I think Clem and I had enough of your bull shit!" Looking at Nick, he leaves a few words to him. "I can't  even call you my brother. You've  turned man.  Turned to someone i don't  even know anymore."

He quickly runs with Clem into my truck. 

  "Guys-"

"Start the damn car Amia." I know they are not going to leave so I start my truck and head to the street. His voice was stern enough as is.  I'm  sad to leave a hidden, safe place but happy to get out. Happy to have people who see what I see.

Another chapter!!! Im telling you guys I'm  going to try to update this the best i can! :) 2 votes for the next chapter.  Leave your comments.  To add, i will be adding twd characters soon and walkers will become  involved.  (: