Dancing High (Park Jisung FanFic)

十八 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚃𝚛𝚞𝚝𝚑

Shengling P.O.V
I locked the doors so that no one can go in, not even Jisung...i don't want to see his worried face...it hurts me

EVERYTHING HURTS, I JUST WANT TO DIE RIGHT NOW EVERYBODY KNOWS WHO I AM NEWS KEEPS ON SPREADING UGH THEY SAY LOVE YOUR PARENTS BUT HOW WILL I LIVE MY PARENTS WHO CAUSED ALL THIS, MY MOM GAVE BIRTH TO ME SHE COULD'VE JUST ABORTED ME WHY DO I EVEN EXSIST

I cant, I can't hold it anymore...

I cut both of my arms, 30 cuts each. I put a towel on my bed so that the blood won't stain

I put a rope around my neck and tighten it

I cut my hair shorter and dyed it maroon...for some reason....

I lay on the bed to think that this is it, it's over, I'm done, let my blood go out I don't care

Jisung P.O.V
As they released me I ran as fast as I can to Shengling's dorm

She locked the door, I tried looking at the window... oh no WHAT IS SHE DOING "SHENGLING!! OPEN THE DOOR NOW!!" no respond, she was just laying there, a lot of blood keeps coming out of her and she is trying to choke herself

Donghyun: Jingshen...
Sehyun: is she suicidal...
Hoya: kids her name is not Jingshen, we should go now I'll explain on the way

"SHENGLING OPEN THE DOOR PLEASE I NEED YOU TO LIVE PLEASE *sobs*" I can't, I broke down the door and ran to her room, dangit she locked it as well, I broke it down and breathe heavily

Shengling: o-Oppa... W-what a-are Y-you d-doing H-here...
Me: Shengling no no no no *goes to her and lay her head on his lap* Ling please stop *crying* I need you
Shengling: nobody need me...i could've just been aborted
Me: I need you! *sobs* youre my inspiration I need you to be happy please *sobs*
Shengling: I'm sorry! *crying* please forgive me! This is all my fault!
Me: no it's your parents fault *hugs her* if only they didn't do this to you, you would know what love is
Shengling: what is love...
Me: it's hard to explain...love can mean so many things...i can help you find it
Shengling: how *crying and hugs him tighter*
Me: I love you...
Shengling: *cries harder*
Me: it's okay *cries with her* I'm here...

Time Skip

She was sitting on the bed spacing out, I prepared bandages and food for her, I went on the bed and sat beside her, wrapped the bandages on her two arms and removed the rope that was still on her neck...it hurts seeing her like this...

I fed her the ramyeon and after that I tried to cut her hair to make it more straight, it went well. I washed her hair to clean the dye and make it neat, after that I dried her hair

She looks good with short hair and maroon dye, she had back pain so right now I'm massaging her back

Shengling: why do you always care for me...*crying*
Me: because you are special...you need someone and I would be glad to be that someone
Shengling: is this what you call love? *wipes tear*
Me: *smile while blushing* yes, yes it is *pecks her cheek*
Shengling: thank you for being there for me *hugs him*
Me: *hugs her back* anything for you Ling
Shengling: I like that nickname
Me: *chuckles* I like it to

Hoya P.O.V
Me: okay kids sit down
Hunwoo: coach who is Shengling
Me: okay...you see before Jingshen became a trainee she was on a vacation with her family, she decided to run away and try living here on her own, her "brother" found her and brought her in the SM studio. They made her a trainee and changed her name to Huang Jingshen
Sehyun: so Jingshen's real name is Shengling?
Hoya: Kong Shengling
All: oooohh...
Hoya: we are going to see Jisung and Shengling in a few days, Shengling needs space right now and Jisung is taking care of her
Eunmin: I'm so glad uri Jisungie is taking care of her
Yoonjun: if not she would be dead right now
Hoya: yeah...she is very suicidal
Junhee: why is that
Hoya: she is born with Anxiety, ADHD and Depression...
All: ooh..
Donghyun: that's sad
Sehyun: Jing- I mean Shengling always looks happy with us
Eunmin: but inside she is not...
Hoya: she only expresses herself to me and Jisung
Sehyun: so Jisung knew it before?
Hoya: yeah but the first one to know it is Yuta and Lucas from NCT
Hunwoo: oh so Lucas is the one that volunteered to be her brother?
Hoya: yes
All: ooh...

Shengling P.O.V

My love for Jisung is getting stronger...i mean I know he likes me already but I just don't know when to confess to him that I feel the same way....

He is always caring for me...he changed from when he used to hate me...when I cry he cries....when I'm happy he is happy...its like...its like...he is my soul mate...

Jisung: Ling come here
Me: *goes on the bed and hugs him* I'm going to sleep now

Jisung P.O.V
Me: okay goodnight
Shengling: *deep sleep*
Me: I love you *pecks her lips*

Shengling P.O.V
Okay I may look like a deep sleeper to Jisung's eyes

But I felt that

OMG THAT WAS MY FIRST OMG OMG EEK I SHOULD JUST PRETEND I'M SLEEPING EVERYNIGHT SO I COULD FEEL HIS LIPS ON MINE

he really did show me what love is... It's strong and it never goes away...the first love I revived was from Jisung...my parent never showed love to me...jisung did...he explains it and tells me how it feels like...his "I love you"s to me makes me warm...its like I need him everywhere I go....