Love Hurt - Poem

From Erishya to Bastian

Dear Diary

I built the fortress seconds by seconds, days by days, years by years with all my strengths and all the fallen tears.

I tried to forget him. Tried to deny all my feelings. But my heart cannot lie.

This heart still calls his name.

This heart still throbs when seeing his face.

This heart still crushes every time he calls my name.

This heart... still loves him.

For a moment, the fortress falls apart. For a moment, I want to run to him, hug him tightly, kiss him.

For once I thought that, a kiss won't kill. But the kiss will seal.

But all my sane keeps me from stepping toward him. Keep my lips to talk to him. Keep my eyes to look at him.

Because I know, once I do it, at that moment I cannot step back. At that moment I will fall for him again and again.

Because my heart cannot lie that I still love him, Bastian Winata.

--Note:

For a complete story about Erishya and Bastian, please go to "Best I've Ever Had" story in my profile. 

Thank you.