Unbalanced Electrical Storm

Part 4: Teenage Dream

Year -5

November 14, 2003

Dear Diary:

Alright, so it's been a couple of months since school started, and it seems like everybody forgot about the whole 'me being a slut' thing. Thank God, that was torture, I was crying for months. Thank God for summer vacation. I'm still going to avoid dating for awhile, I'm suspicious of everyone, what Samson did was just disgusting, he made me feel worthless. Not anymore, I will never let anybody take advantage of me ever again. Kurt moved away, which is a bummer cause that just leaves me, Michael and Lois left. Oh well, that's life. The popular girls still make my life hell from time to time. Not as much as they used to though, probably because I stopped wearing sweatpants to school, still wearing my t-shirts though, dammit. I love my t-shirts. We also got a new cute boy in our class this year named Jack Warner and he actually talks to me. I know I said I'm not ready to date again, and I'm not but when I am, I'm hoping that he'll be good to me. This week is my sixteenth birthday, and I'm so super excited! I'm going to the doctor on Wednesday for a checkup and see if I can get my permit. I really hope so, cause that's one thing I've always wanted to do was drive and now that I'll be old enough to, I really hope I can, I'm actually looking forward to it. Well, got school tomorrow, night.

"So, Jack. How do you like our school so far?" Sandra asks.

"It's pretty good I guess. You guys all seem great." Jack says.

"Yeah..."

"So what is there to do in this town?"

"Well, we have an arcade, bowling alley, couple of parks."

"Neat." The bell rings.

"Shit, school is over. See you later, Jack."

"Later, Sandy." Sandra packs up her backpack and gets on the bus. Michael sits next to her.

"How's it going Sandy?"

"Pretty good."

"You like Jack?"

"Kind of."

"Yeah, I can tell."

"Is it really that obvious?"

"Yeah."

"Well, it's just a crush, I'm not looking to date right now anyway."

"Ok, good."

"Why, are you jealous?"

"N-no, I'm just protective."

"Haha, ok, sure."

"Look, he seems like bad news."

"You say that about everybody, get over yourself. You're just mad I don't have a crush on you."

"That's not true!" He turns red.

"I'm not stupid, I know you might have some kind of little crush on me, and I'm flattered, but I only see you like a brother... for now at least, I don't know, I mean, we could try in like ten years, but definitely not now."

"Oh... I'm gonna hold you to that." He laughs.

"Haha, ok." The bus stops. "See you later, Michael."

November 15, 2003

Dear Diary:

Jack is really, really cute. He has blonde hair, blue eyes that reflect when the light hits his glasses. I might consider changing my mind, I mean, he's not from around here so he doesn't know me like the other guys at school do. I'll ask him sometime this week, or next week, or next month, or something. I don't know, I'm too nervous to ask anyone out, I'm terrified of rejection. I don't know. Michael has a crush on me, I'm not sure how I feel about that. I mean, he's my best friend and all, and I don't wanna hurt his feelings but I don't want him. It sounds terrible I know, but I'm just not attracted to my best friend and he obviously is. Hopefully he got the hint when I explained it. Well anyway, later.