Unbalanced Electrical Storm

Part 5: Angel

Year -4

Month 1

October 20, 2004

Dear Diary:

Ok, so I did something tonight I didn't think I'd ever do. I went on a blind date with a guy named Carl. He is the brother of a girlfriend of a friend of mine. Weird, I know but this guy is straight up Christian, like, 100% Jesus freak... and I like him. I figure it's perfect, he's a Christian, I'm a Christian so this should go well. He's really nice too, like really, really, really nice. He's really shy and quiet, even more than me. Anyway, I went to a restaurant with my friend and his girlfriend and Carl and it was awkward but I think we got along ok. He invited me to go to church with him on Sunday and I said yes. I figure this will be good for my spirituality. Maybe he's the one I've been looking for. I know, I'm getting way ahead of myself, but I don't see how this can go wrong. He seems nice enough, and he's Christian so I know he's a good guy. Maybe my goal of being married by eighteen will come true after all. I can't believe I have a boyfriend again. Hopefully this one will be a keeper. I'll make sure to keep you updated on this new venture. Who knows what it'll bring? Good night.

That Sunday, Sandra and Carl, a heavyset guy with thick glasses and short brown hair are eating at a pizza place in silence. "So... do you go to my school, or a different school or something? I've never seen you before." Sandra asks.

"No, I'm homeschooled."

"How does that work?"

"Cyberschool."

"Oh, ok."

"Yeah."

"So you do this every Sunday?"

"Yup. Except it's usually with the rest of my family but they had their own stuff to do today."

"Oh..."

"Ready to go home?"

"Yeah, I guess." They finish their lunch and Carl drops Sandra off at home.

"So how was church?" Sonia asks.

"It was fine."

October 27, 2004

Dear Diary:

So, today I went to church with Carl and it was kind of nice. The sermon was good, I was invited to do stuff, and I was welcomed instantly. I have a feeling like maybe this would be the relationship I've been looking forward to. He hasn't tried a thing with me yet, which is weird cause guys his age are always horny. Maybe it's the Christian upbringing he's had that's given him this self control. We didn't talk much again today, maybe he still needs to get used to me. After all, as I understand it, I'm his first girlfriend. That's kind of cute, he's a year older than me and I'm his first girlfriend. He comes off so innocent, too. Can someone as naïve and innocent as him really exist, or is this another façade? Well, I believe everyone deserves a chance, sometimes even seconds if I like them enough. I like Carl, and I can't wait until he opens up enough to let me know all about him. I thought we'd get conversation going when it was just him and me after church, but he was still pretty quiet. Anything I ask him if we relate to, he says no to. He doesn't listen to the same music, read the same books, or enjoy much of the same stuff I do. So far the only thing we have in common is our religion. Eh, it's only been a week so far, hopefully we'll get somewhere on some level. I guess I shouldn't be complaining, I have a good guy finally and I should try to hold on to him as long as I could. Who knows? Maybe my time has come.

Month 10

August 14, 2005

Dear Diary:

So, this week I'm going to the annual ChristianFest that's happening. Carl has been there every year, I've never been. Apparently it's a festival where a bunch of preachers and Christian bands play the whole week. In order to get in for free, we signed up to work. We've got a long drive ahead of us, we gotta go to another state. I'm excited to go. Even though we're going with his family, we'll still have some time to be alone. Maybe I can get more than a kiss. I'm afraid to ask, because I don't know how he'll react. I don't quite know what I want to happen, but it's been ten months, and we still barely talk or do any couples' things except for the kiss we have each time we separate. I don't know, better than the jerks I'm used to, so why complain?