Takdir

∞ November ∞

17 November 20xxi. 4 am

Why am I here? What do you want from me Xye? Have you gotten anything from playing with our destiny?

Or do you distaste it as much as I do? Then, why haven't you let me go?

Why haven't I left this godforsaken place?

. . .

But then, where do I go? Because I have nothing left and no home in this world, not anymore.

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28 February 20xxii. 10 pm

How long has time passed? How far has the wind gone?

I'm still trying to be okay.

I'm still trying to stay alive.

But the bruises is gone, even though the scars were left forever in my heart.

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3 April 20xxii. 2 am

What if I had accepted you as my destiny that day? What if I had not ran away from you that day, Xye? What if I had not been so hurt by the idea of living the destiny? What if I had not been broken when you found me, Xye?

Could anything be different for me? Could I be living in happiness? Could I be living far from this nightmare?

Now, could I redeem it now?

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7 October 20xxii. 9 pm

Suri . . .

I saw you at the annual meeting today. Noah was beside you. I cried instantly, behind the wall under the dark shade of that corner, because I am glad you are doing fine. I am glad you are still the happy-go-lucky girl that I met two years ago. I am glad Noah took care of you and your newborn baby. The baby is so cute! I wish I can go there and hug you, all of you.

Adam has became a great leader, as I have heard. He hasn't found his mate yet, apparently. But I couldn't erase from my mind, the hardness his eyes carries while facing the world. I am not strong enough to acknowledge that I could be the reason he became so hard and distant towards everyone.

I'm sorry Adam. If only I could ease it for you . . .