Sometimes, God,
It feels like I'm doing a whole lot of talking
And there isn't anyone listening.
I'm sorry for my doubts and fears,
But I have been so broken for so long.
I have been so tired for so long.
When can I be Christian enough to forgive myself?
When will I let go of the hateful acts I commited
Against the girl You wanted me to be?
God, are You hearing me out?
Are You listening to me right now?
I miss the comfort of the girl I used to be
I miss the girl that loved her God so much
She abstained from anything I'd consider fun
But that girl is dead,
And I was too careless to attend her funeral
I was too careless to watch her die
To watch the light leave her eyes
God, can you even hear me right now?
Because sometimes, my old scripture notes
Look a lot like a language I've never seen before
God, I am struggling, and I need Your help.
Please let me find my way back to You
Give me a map so I can find my way
I promise, this time, I'll stay on my route
No more pit stops or turning around
No more stopping and just giving up
God, bring me back to church
I will put on my Sunday best
And I'll pray for the girl I killed
I'll pray that somehow, she found her way back to You
Someday, Your love will show her how to love herself
Your love will teach her to be less cruel
God, I know You are listening
Could you please just give me an answer?
Could you please just let me know You're there?
I miss hearing from You
I'm sorry for straying so far,
I just pray I'm not too far out of range
