My Ups&Downs

Depression

There's just those times you feel empty and incomplete.

There's just those time you feel like you don't have a future, those times you feel like your life just ended at that moment.

Those times you just felt like you've lost hope and dying sounded like a sweet paradise.

But the moment you pick the knife, you realize that you don't really want to die. Because dying is scary.

You still do care about the people around you. How they would think about what you did.

It's hard.

It's suffocating.

It's just so exhausting.

But you can't just let go when you've already come to this point.

The struggle you endured before, you remember it and realize that this is just one of those moments again.

You just need to clear out your thoughts and hold on even if it's tiring.

You need to hold on.

The depression that drowns you and the small hope that makes you realize. The unending cycle that seemed to last forever.

It's exhausting, tiring, draining.

But you need to hold on. You need to keep moving forward even if you tripped.

It hurts.

I want to give up.

But a part of me still wants to hold on, a part of me doesn't want to run away.

So I'll hold on to the small hope that's slowly fading away by the waves of depression that keeps on pulling me down, drowning me in sadness and exhaustion.

You need to hold on to that tiny thread of life.