I Will Always Love You (Matt×depressed reader)

2. Depression

(Y/n)'s POV

I woke up in the middle of night as usual and saw Matt sleeping. I checked the time. It was 2 in the morning. 'Goodness! Not again.' I thought to myself and sat up straight. Time passed, I was just sitting there, on the couch, remembering my past, crying. I stood up and went to the backyard and sat by the wall, watching the moon and stars while tears rolled down my cheek.

Matt's POV

I woke up to the cold breeze coming in. I saw that (y/n) was not here and the door to backyard was slightly open. I went out and saw her sitting by the wall, crying.

(Y/n)'s POV

M- (y/n)!! What's happened?

I instantly looked at him and then the other way to wipe my tears.

Y- Nothing. I am ok.
M- You do not look ok to me. Just tell me, what happened?

I stayed quiet for a while and Matt sat next to me.

M- Still suffering from depression, I see.
Y- Hmm..
M- If you want to, you can tell me what you were thinking about. You will feel better.
Y- If I tell you, you will never look at me the same.
M- I will always be there for you. No matter what. Just tell me. I can't see you sad anymore.
Y- Ok. A lot have happened in my life. You remember that I did not had any friends in school other than you. Right?
M- Mhmm..
Y- When I was in 12th grade, I met this guy. We were in same class. He was really sweet, calm and innocent. At least, that's what I thought. We talked for months and then finally came into relationship. I think only 3-4 days passed when one day, we had a substitute period and there was no place for me to sit other than next to him. So I sat there. I was just working on an assignment when he started to tease me like snatching my pen or my assignment. I told him not to as I had to submit it by afternoon. Then he sat for a while without saying anything. Suddenly, I don't know what happened to him, he started touching my... thighs. It made me uncomfortable. I told him but he did not listen. Then he touched me on my... chest. The class was silent and I just shouted at him "DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT I AM SAYING?" Whole class turned to me. I felt so embarrassed that I ran away from there. In the evening, he called me and apologized. I thought I should give him another chance. But I was wrong. Some days later, he tried to... r-rape me. *tears rolled down* I, somehow, managed to escape.

Y- In 5th, 6th, 7th and 8th grade, you might remember that I used to get bully every single day for my weight and how I looked. Calling me with such horrible names. I don't even know how I survived through all that.

Y- When I was 4 or 5, I was sexually assaulted by my own cousin. I still remember that he told me that 'We will play together. I'll be the doctor and you'll be the patient.' He took me in another room and touched... me. I was really young. I couldn't even tell anyone what happened. And I never did. I did not wanted to make any conflicts between my family.

Y- Then, mom and dad.. had that accident in which they left me.

Y- All these years, I held these things in me. Never told anyone about this. Thought of ending my life many times but... I just couldn't. As time passed, I started hating myself. I feel disgusted for who I am.

I was crying while telling him everything that has happened with me until now when he just silently wrapped his arm around my shoulder and pulled me in. I leaned on him, closed my eyes and we stayed like that for a while.

Few minutes passed, we slowly sat straight and looked in each other's eyes. The distance between us got lesser and lesser. And before we knew, we were kissing. When we parted,

M- I can't hide my feelings anymore.
Y- Hmm?
M- The truth is I love you, (y/n). A lot. I have always loved you. Only I know how I spent these 8 years without you by my side.
Y- What? You are joking. I know, Joey must have told you to say this to me.
M- What are you talking about?
Y- Why would a guy like you love a girl like me? You are famous, I am a nobody. You are so handsome and I am just. I am just the opposite of you. In everything.
M- For me, you are the most beautiful and perfect person. I always wanted to confess but I was scared of what if I lose you as a friend too.
Y- You still love me? After knowing my past?
M- Yes (y/n). I still love you and will always do. I promise, I will give you everything that makes you happy.

I paused for a while and looked at the ground.

Y- *teary* Actually, I love you too, Matt. I also wanted to confess but I thought I was not enough for you.
M- You are more than enough. You are my everything.

I smiled at him and he smiled back. Then he wiped my tears.

M- Now stop crying. Come with me. I want to show you something.

He took me to his room. When he opened the door, I saw that there were mine and Matt's photos everywhere on his wall. When we were kids, When we were in school, when both of our families went on trips, and many more. Mostly, there were only mine. These were the photos when I was actually happy. Suddenly, I saw two photo of when we were about 3-4 years old. In the first one, Matt was giving a flower to me and in the second one, I was kissing Matt on the cheek. I chuckled.

M- *smile* What?
Y- These photos.
M- Your photos always made me feel that you are by my side.
Y- *laughs* Is this what Bryan was talking about when you hit him?
M- Uhh.. Actually, yes. *blush*
Y- Who else knows about this?
M- *sitting on his bed* Everyone in my family.
Y- WHAT!? Seriously?
M- Yeah.
Y- This is embarrassing.

I covered my face with my hands. Matt took my hands in his and kissed my forehead.

M- My family really loves you.

We sat on his bed and talked for a while when I yawned.

M- I think we should sleep now. It's 4 in the morning.
Y- I am really sorry that I kept you awake.
M- It's nothing. If you ever want to talk to someone, I'll always be here for you.
Y- I love you, Matt.
M- I love you too, (y/n).

We kissed and said 'good night' and slept.