The girl at the door (Hosie)

Chpt 10.

Hope POV

Josie and I drive on the road in silence as the airport started to come in view.
"Hope?" She says as I turn my head away from the window to look at her.
"When we get there what are we going to do?"

"I don't know I didn't think that far"
"Are you just trying to get answers because maybe you don't need them" I stare at her and frown.
"Josie what are you saying?"
"I don't know" she says as she grips the steering wheel hard that even her knuckles turn white.

"Josie are you okay?"
"I'm fine"
"Something's on your mind-" I put my hand on hers and remove the one hand from the steering wheel. I hold her hand in mine.
"Please tell me" she relaxes as her grip on the steering wheel has relaxed.

"You know when I told you that story of how that guy hurt me" I don't move
"I never told you how he hurt me" I was afraid of what she was going to say.
"Do you want to know?" She looks at me but I avoid her eyes and look down at our hands that are still together.

"Yeah" I say in a whisper even though I didn't really want to know what happened.
"He rapped me.." I tense up and close my eyes.
"I'm so sorry Josie if it wasn't for me than that would have never happened"
"Hope it wasn't really your fault"
"You're just saying that to make me feel better"

I take my hand out of hers and turn my body so that I'm facing the window again.
"No hope he was a creep and I wasn't careful, in a way I sort of fucked him off and made him angry at me than that night came and he went for me..but do you want to know something....this whole time I convinced myself that you were evil and you were the one that made the event happen....but the truth is it wasn't you....I had to come out anyway but I was to chicken to come out...you made it easier for me in a way"

I still didn't move a little inside of me wanted to cry but why did I want to cry.
"Hope what I'm trying to say is everything you did...I forgive you" I slowly turn my head to look at her. She holds our gaze for just a second before parking and getting out the car. I still don't know what to say so I just followed her lead and got out the car.

I grabbed my bag and Josie grabbed her backpack. We headed into the airport once again in silence. Josie had booked the tickets already so all we had to do was check in and go through.

• • •

After about 20 minutes we headed onto the plane. Josie hadn't said a word to me and I didn't say anything to her. I don't know why I couldn't just speak but my mouth was so dry and my brain was telling me to just keep quiet. Josie and I took our seats on the plane as everyone started to board the plane.

"How?" I finally say making Josie stop what she was doing to look up at me.
"Welcome to mango airways I am you're pilot Kyle and today we will be flying to Australia on this beautiful night. I hope all of you have buckled up the plane will be in the air soon" I stare straight ahead as I still feel Josie's eyes on me.

"what?" She says as the plane starts to slowly move to the runway.
"How can you forgive me?" I side eye her as the plane starts to pick up speed.
"I did a bad thing Josie and you got hurt from it. Why would you ever forgive me?"

The plane sped off and starts to go up. Josie gets a fright and clutches her seat closing her eyes. When the plane finally settles into the air I turn my full attention to her.
"Josie?" She opens her eyes and looks at me.
"Cause hope I like you and when you like someone you seem to forgive them no matter what they have done and like I said again it wasn't really your fault"

"Jo what do you mean?" She breaths in and out.
"That day before he hurt me he came to my room. He wanted to know why you were spreading all the rumours that I was gay. I told him that I really was gay and he didn't believe me, he asked me in a different tone why you were telling everyone and I sort of blurted out that you were my girlfriend"