Cash and Mav

oops I did it again..

We sit in that hallway for what feels like an hour but only was 10 minutes. After a while we hear the back door open. "Hello? Len, Mav?" A manly but high pitched voice says.

Cash finds me sitting on Mavericks lap in the hallway. "What what the hell?" Cash exclaims. "What are you doing here!? And why are you sitting on Mavericks lap!?"

I laugh. (You know it's serious when she laughs)
"You'd like to know huh?! Well at least I don't kiss someone Else!" I yell at him and storm upstairs. I run into Cash and my room and go straight towards the bathroom. I lock the door and just slide down crying.. again.

I hear the boys fighting downstairs and Things like "What the hell dude!" And "Why the f*ck would you do that!" Come out of Mavericks mouth.

I see a little box standing in the cabinet. Wow. I haven't seen that in a long time..

See I used to uhm.. I used to cut about 2 years ago. My dad abused me and when he killed my mom things Just got worse. He could'nt take his anger out on mom so he did it on me. I cutted almost Everyday until one day my dad Just dissapeared. Later I found out that my brothes beat him up big time. He legt after that, and we didn't see him again. after that I still went on with cutting. almost everyday, for a good 2 months.

My best friend at the moment found out and forced me to stop. She threw away my razor, but she didnt know that I had a whole box.

I look at the box and think. It used to make me feel so much better! Maybe I should try it..

I push myself up and make a few steps towards the cabinet. I grab the box and open it slowly. I see them. 4 silver razors shining in the light. They're all clean. Never used before.

That's about to change..

*Imma skip this part*

I cover everything up with foundation and put long sleeves on.
Just after I put my shirt on someone knocks on the door.

"Lenna" I ignore him. "Lenna please I messed up I know please Just open the door"
I unlock the door and step out. I look him right in the eyes and say "why did you do it!? Even better, why did you lie?" My voice breaks at the end of the sentence and my eyes start to water. With my voice still Breaking I say "Friends don't lie" and I walk away. I walk towards the door.

Maverick stops me on my way out "don't go!" I make him let go of my arm and look him in the eyes with tears in my own eyes. "I-I'm sorry" I say.

"Where would you go!?" He shouts after me. "Please lenna.. p-please  don't  g-go" his voice soft. breaking. desperate.
I look back one last time and I step out of the house. "I'm sorry" I say again, but I know no one would hear it. I could barely hear it myself.

Ofcourse. It's raining. I walk trough the rain still sobbing. You can't see it though cause it's raining really bad.

"Where would you go!?" I hear Mavericks voice still ringing in my ears. I'm gonna miss him! I really love him. He's like my third brother.

But, where would I go? I tought that over already. When I was at home today, after Maverick helped me stop crying over his dumb brother, I went online and bought plane tickets to
California. there is a Stranger Things question panel, (idk what the name is of those interviews where fans van ask questions) And i've become quite the fan ever since I started watching the show. I've been binge watching for 3 days straight now and I'm almost at season three. Since the panel is next week I have enough time to watch the rest of the show.

I see an Uber and call him over.

"Hello miss, where to?" The driver asks. I tell him the destination and he starts driving towards the airport.
Once he notices I'm crying he asks if I'm okay. My head shoots up because I kind of zoned out. "Wha- oh ye- yeah i'm okay" I say quickly. I whipe my eyes dry and flash him a smile.

It's fake. It's a fake smile and he knows it, but he smiles back anyways trying to cheer me up.

We arrive at the airport after an hour. I pay the kind driver and thank him. "No problem love, it's my job. Look out for yourself!" I walk up the stairs at the airport and smile a little at how Nice the driver was.

Hey guys thank you so much for 1.40k!! I didn't think that people would actually Read this! I'm sorry i'm not very fast with updating but I'm not in a good state emotionally. I've had a lot of mental breakdowns and I Fell back into old habits.

Anyway I'll try updating more. I'll also have to update on YouTube and tiktok so im sorry it takes a little longer

I love you all so much!!❤️❤️
(I have a feeling no one READS author notes tho)