Cash and Mav

panic attack, again!?

'It was love'

I'm in love with Cash Baker. Omg I'm in love! This is like... The first time! Help omg I lost my V-card. I'm only 16! Well 17 in a few weeks but.. that doesn't matter. What if he doesn't even like me!
What if he's Just using me!
He can have way better why is he with me!?

All the questions that could possibly make me feel bad are storming trough my head. The room gets fuzzy and the whole world starts spinning (it already did lol. sorry I'll leave go read) I walk back to the bed Cash and I slept in tonight and grab the end trying to Stay on my feet. I think Cash already went downstairs for breakfast cuz he isn't in bed.

I start having Trouble with breathing. It takes a lot to inhale and exhale and there's a lot of pressure on my chest.
I fall down with a loud thud. Someone must of heard it because I hear someone running into the room. "Omg LENNA" A high pitched voice screamed. It's Lani. Lani starts stressing. "omg Lenna what happend!? Are you okay?! CASH MAVERICK!!" she calls the boys and they come running into the room. I look at Cash with lost eyes. there's only a little bit of hope in them. He rushes to me and sits down also on the floor. He shoves me into him. "shh it's gonna be okay. just try to breathe." he wispers as he strokes my back. I try but begin crying cuz I'm so stressed and confused. " hey hey hey look at me, look at me" he says fast. I look into his eyes and immediatly get lost. I start breathing a bit calmer and my body relaxes. Lani and Maverick left us alone knowing that Cash would probably do a better job than paramedics.

when I fully relax I start crying. he pulls me into a hug and I cry into his chest. We sit there for what feels like hours, when it was only 30 minutes.

After crying in Cash's chest I fall asleep. Cash strokes my Hair and falls asleep a little while later.