Does Mr Right Exist

Chapter_Five: New Friend

*Andres POV*

I felt like an idiot for what I did, what was I thinking fighting for her like that? I mean I should've let it go and moved on with my life. I hated myself for a moment, silence seemed to be the best I could do at that moment without losing her friendship I needed this girl and for some reason I felt as though I'd known her forever but I was one to know a relationship wasn't good for me.

I couldn't, not again.

I'd worked so hard to bury my past, I was OK  like this and I wasn't going to let a girl mess with my mind I'd been through this bullshit already and going back would be my downfall. I was basically thee Casanova at school and I was cool with the title even though Mark knew it was all a fake, just a facade to hide who I was.

I couldn't break down now, I was almost there, I was known for breaking hearts, the cool guy, the basketball player everyone wanted to date but really all those girls I'd laid before were just part of the facade, a big bad dream that sometimes I had to sit and ask myself how did I get here and Anne's name filled my head and I quickly drifted all thoughts of her out of my mind, I didn't care that everyone thought I was cool or had swagg but all I wanted was to have a normal life, where I'd lift this cloud over weighing me off my shoulders and be me, the boy who  had a heart, I hated abusive boys yet I acted like one but every time I did I had to remind myself it was still part of my facade and i hated myself for it, I hated Anne for putting me in such misery. I was just a kid, a seventeen years old who was trying to keep his heart secure after being brought down by what he thought was love.

I'd learned life was what I made out of it and so far I was a nobody, a basketball player was just a title that added no value to my life, I wanted to be much more but self doubt was what I'd learned to live with. I wasn't rich but even I had to admit I was good looking yet I cared never about that.

Mark and I had been best friends since kindergarten. I remember very well I had a popsicle and dropped it to the ground when playing on a swing, I started crying and out of no where a cute boy my age offered me his and we shared it, since that day we were inseparable and stuck together through think and thin, I'd told Mark about what happened earlier today and he was worried but he knew  i had to keep my head in the game I knew I had to apologise so before I could change my mind I took my phone and texted her keeping in my this was my realiyni didn't have time for ''love'' and I couldn't deny it, my conscious was right I didn't Ned a girl to make me happy, I didn't need happiness, I'd even forgotten what it was and hopefully for the best

Sorry about today ...luv cupcake :-)

Its cool no worries cuppy:-)

I was well aware that my text was short and had no feelings but I was really sorry, I didn't want her to see me like that. My heart stopped beating after I clicked on send but I was relieved the moment she replied and I smiled to my myself clearly glad today was part of my past now. After a goodnight message I went to sleep.

I woke up to my mothers fresh bacon, the smell filled the room so I got out of bed ran to the  bathroom washed my face and brushed my teeth. I stood in front of the mirror for a while thinking I'd changed a lot, physically but I push that thought aside as my tummy was in demand of food so I quickly went downstairs. Sam and mom were in the kitchen so I kissed Sam on the cheek and hugged momma morning.

"Andre will you take me to the park later?" She asked her mouth full of eggs

" sure, I don't mind'' I said sitting down as momma offered me breakfast and Andrico walked in