"Ano ba talaga tayo Ferdinand?"
I look at him eye to eye. I am so nervous. Im scared of his answers but i am more scared for myself. Desidido na ko sa araw na 'to.
"What do you mean Bei?" Confuse. Confused si Thirdy.
"Tayo Thirds, ano ba talaga tayo?"Ayokong sa'kin manggaling ang options, once in for all i wanna hear his thoughts, about us kung meron ba talagang kami.
"We are speacial for each other right? You are special to me Ysa."
Special Beatriz.
Not girlfriend.
Hindi ka ata mahal Beatriz, paano ba yan?
all day been dreaming of you and me
I've been dreaming of fantasy
us, together to infinity
maybe next to impossibility
"What do you mean special?"
"I like you Bei. I really do thats why you are special to me. You're always there for me through ups and down and so am I to you."
He answer me with conviction and damn ayokong bumigay na naman. Kasi gusto kong piliin naman ang sarili ko. Deserve ko rin naman ang kasiguraduhan.
"How about the other girls you hang out with? Special din ba sila?"
"Of course Bei, they are like my sisters."
"Am I a sister to you?"
Damn, pasikip na ng pasikip ang dibdib ko. Ferdinand just say it then i'll stop this.
"Wait, what? Saan ba pupunta 'tong usapan na 'to?"
"Ferdinand, that night na sinabi mo sakin to consider you. I did not just consider you eh, i give you all the chances to prove yourself to me."
Oh I, I've been wanting to be with you
but i'm here left alone
"Ysa. . . " He tried to reach my hand but i refuse to. Lumayo ako sa kanya. I look at the sky in front of us. There are so many stars but none of them seems to grant my wish.
"Sumaya naman ako after non. God knows how happy I am. Kasi you know what you are one of my happiness. When im with you i feel like i am secured, loved and sabi mo nga special. Nararamdama ko naman 'yon."
"Because thats what you are to me Ysa. Mahalaga ka sakin."
Tumingin ako sa kanya kasabay ng pagtulo ng luha ko.
cause I'm stuck in this illusion called us
Stuck in this puzzle and it doesn't get any better
"Kung mahalaga ako sa'yo Thirds, mahalaga din ba sila Julliane, Ju, Pat and any other girls you're with?"
"Ysa are you jealous?"
"Jealous? Maybe Thirds im jealous. Akala ko kasi noon when you told me you'll like me everything will be so clear for us but i was wrong.Naalala mo ba noong dapat pupunta tayo sa Tagaytay for dinner? August 4, 2018? Thats was the time na decided na kong maging tayo eventhough you're not asking."
Shock was written all over his face.
Here i am in front of our gate. Thirdy told me we'll have dinner in Tagaytay. He will pick me up at 8pm, 7:30 pa lang naman. Napaaga ata ako. Hahaha Beatriz excited ka ha.
I wore my white dress. Kaisa-isa ko 'tong matinong dress sa drawer ko. Reserved for special occasion. Pakiramdam ko kasi tonight he will ask me officially to be his girlfriend. I would definitely say yes.
