Sinister Obsession

-24- My Babies

"We must finish this Cary" The sound of estrella's words threaten me with paralyzing fear. I must reveal to my cubs. Their own origins. Looking to them. Their eyes remain stoically locked on me."They will not reject us. And if they do. We have done all we can for them my human companion. I am, as I have always been and will always remain. With you"

"Estrella. I am scared. These are my cubs." The tremor in my wulf tone clear. My gaze moves to my alpha. I know the goddess has informed him. Again He looks at me and nods. Then privately, his wulf tone, full of gentle wisdom, enters my mind. "My dearest Cary. They are the proud products of you. Do not fear. For I know deep in my wulf heart. Although my human mate & Beta are strong-willed. You are the most treasured star of both. Be not afraid. Rather have faith."

Taking a deep breath I nod to my alpha "Thank you Alpha. I have forgotten." Looking to Alejandro. The eyes of both he and his brother have never left me. Holding both anxiety and irritation. Taking a deep breath I meet his gaze firmly and begin. I know where to start.

"Alejandro." gazing away, my tone takes forces it words through a throat that holds a knot within it. "There is a reason you never adventured with mates."

Lifting my gaze to my son "It is because you, Reuben, Randall, and Robert had already met." All four pairs of eyes are on me with such shocking intensity. I look to Rosa and Yonell. They nod. I continue

"It was no coincidence you four are mates.... You met as cubs." Alejandro turns his gaze to Rosa and Yonell then to Robert. Then to his brother and finally.. Reuben.

Turning back to me, When he spoke, his words removed all doubt. Alejandro knew what I had done "Ma... tell me you didn't? Please tell me you didn't." He knows. The shame of this act, forces me to avert his stunned gaze. Then Luna Sable's wulf speak is heard

"That was not her doing. It was mine."

"Sable??? YOU? You had mom do?? Why? Why would you?"

"By my request, she locked away this memory with the atrocities done on this day. Alejandro understand. You killed a whole town of innocence. At such a young age. Your ability was beyond your control but the weight of your act. At such a young age. Would have snapped your mind."

I don't understand. I don't understand why my mother would do such a thing. Why my wulf would request this. Without thinking, my body leaned back towards Reuben's, seeking comfort.

His reaches and drapes both arms across my shoulder. But looking up into his eyes, seeking answers. Instead, I find something else. His awareness of all this. He knows. He too knows of all this. Then I get angry.

Clouds above rumble and suddenly Reuben's eyes blaze Forest green. Crimson answers "Do not blame him mate. I only just told him. For I also..... Just recently learned of this"

"Who told you Crim? Who?" Taking his gaze from me, Crimson does not respond. Yet, gives me my answer. He stares to the storm clouds above. "The Goddess?? Did she keep this a secret all this time? WHY?" Toti answers

I do not look at my son. But the my words come forth "Because. Because while you were born from me in one day. I did not conceive you."

"WHAT!!! NOO! What are you talking about." Pulling away from my mate. I stand numb. Rain begins to fall. I fall to one knee I speak to Sable "Sable. Sable." he answers

"Yes. Ale."

"Tell me she is lying. No. that's not true is it? SHE's my mother. Sable tell me she is my mother please" But he remains silent. When he goes to speak, his own tone is mournful, pain. I feel what he is about to say. About to confirm. No..NO..NOOOO. Looking up to the sky, pain wracks me. Swallowing me completely I roar to him

"FUCK YOU!! NOOOO!! I WILL PROVE SHE IS MY MOTHER LOOK!! Look!!!" Lightning slams into my mother, bathing her while she stood quietly still. Not a single bolt harming her.

Again and againi call to them until Sable intervenes. Halting the lingthning which had charred the ground beneath mom. "Enough my soul companion."

Burning stings enter my eyes. I look to her. Voice choking with my utterances "Ma. your my ma" Walking towards her closing the small gap between us. Toti kneels and hugs me while still resonating the lightning that just attacked her. Her sniffles heard in my ear as she just.. Hugs me.

Arms reach up caressing her form still reflecting the lightning "You see Sable. You See? Only my birth mother can withstand all my might. Your wrong. She IS MY MOTHER. SHE IS.!!!"

Sable speaks with atone of wisdom and guilt. "You both share the same blood by the goddess's gift. For only she shares the special ability you possess......But no. she is not. Mother speaks truth."

"FUCK YOU!!! FUCK YOU ALL!!!" PULLING BACK FROM MY MOTHER, STARING INTO HER EYES. Desperate. I cup her face begging "MA. MA TELL HIM HE IS WRONG. PLEASE PLEASE MA. Please..tell...me." Her pain, in her eyes, as deep as mine. Radiating strongly off her. Her hand caressing my cheek as she desperately tries to talk but only croaks 

"bebe, mi hijo. Papito (baby, my son, little boy)" returning me to her embrace. Hugging her to me for all my life. Her muffled words enter my ears. Words that shatter me "He is telling the truth. You and your brother are gifts to me from the goddess. My own only cub was killed."

Seeing pain in her face. Her tears. My mother is crying from her pain. Her body slumps completely broken in spirit. Sable tells me Estrella is no better. No matter what she has done. SHE.....THIS SHE-WULF.... IS MY MOTHER.

I don't care that she lied. I don't care that she held this secret. I don't care what she did. I don't. She did it to protect us. She loves me. She raised me. She is my friend. She was my protector, teacher. I am confused, and want answers. But not right now.

"They. our mother" Sable says"They. need us."

My mother is wracked in painful guilt from her act and needs me...... her son. She IS my mother. And she will always be. My arms reach around her body and enclose her, slowly bringing her to me.

I hear "I am so sorry Alejandro. So sorry." She trembles not from the downpour. But rather from the wracked pain and guilt she has lived with for years. 

The sound of her growing sobs enter me as she too encases me in her arms. Footfalls splashing in water puddles heard being stepped in. He kneels and hugs us, our arms extend and within our embrace it is just us three.

The way it has always been. My mother crying, my brother repeating "Mama alpha, mama alpha" and myself, "Mommy, your my toti, mommy just you".

Something happens, from feeling, seeing, hearing my mother this way. For a moment, my tone becomes Luna firm. So too does Sable wulf spoken tone to Estrella. With conviction, we remind them: our mothers. Of their value in our lives.

"No ma. YOU ARE MY MOTHER. AND YOU ALSO ESTRELLA. YOU. AND JUST BOTH. There was NEVER no other She-wulf bitch. NOR WILL THERE EVER BE."Staring into my eyes, my burning will reflects Illumination. I catch the smallest grin appear.

It was all I needed, breaking down hiding my face in her hair. The rain above becomes a downpour soaking us all to the bone. Yet through it all, she heard me. My voice a whisper "Just.. you." her own sobs heard blending with my own and Randall's. Her words clear. Its meaning always is known to my brother and myself all our lives "MY BABIES."