Sinister Obsession

Estrella's Children

"It was a long time ago. A boulder falling on him mysteriously. Killed my birth cub while digging in a den. Your father was not close enough to him to save him in time, so he said." I lower my eyes, averting my son's and continue "Falling into deep mourning, I neither ate or did anything other than curl up at the gravesite. No fire left in my soul. Or an attempt by my mate would bring me out of it. I had lost my will to live. The goddess seeing this approached me while I laid at the site one day where my birth cub perished.

She said, "Estrella I too mourn your loss and am sorry for you, my sister. But I ask you to grant me this. I hold in my arms a special cub who desperately needs a MOTHER. One like no other this world has seen. One who will show him the meaning of a mother's love. I see no other better. Will you accept him as your own.?"

Still laying on the ground with my head on my paws, my head shot up. But it was not at her, or her words. It was from the sound coming from within her enclosed cradled arms. Estrella cocked her head, eyes filling with life light once more. A tiny whine escaped me. SO overwhelmed had I become, I could not answer. She smiled at me then nodded awaiting my answer. Eagerly, vigorously I nodded. Yes. Oya said

"He will be of your blood Estrella. For only your blood matches his own. It will also be what he needs to live my dear protector. Without it, He is so weak. He will die. His father is 'human'. His mother is not.

With the blessing of the All-Father, I will place my hand on him, my other on you. Your teats will once more engorge. But it will be your blood he will be suckling. Thus gaining strength. Thus living to fill his true destiny. I do not deny it will hurt. It will be the pains once more of giving birth. Only it is the only way."

Still, I nodded. I would save a life and be made a mother. Oya extended her arms to me tenderly placing you by my rib cage. From there you turned and suckled on my tits, nursing. I whined feeling your warmth, you were in human form but when you turned over; I fell in love. There was nothing I could do and Oya knew it.

You were so small, so skinny, your ribs sticking out against your taunt gray skin. So malnourished were you and so overcome was I at your presence. I remained mesmerized. Yet you suckled for all your life. All I could do was whine.

It was as Oya reached downwards I growled protectively, without meaning to. Further curling my body closer to you. Sheltering you from even her. Seeing this, Oya hesitated. Then she placed her glowing hand on my head first. Then, slowly she leaned to you with her other. Again I produce a small warning, with lips lifting and dropping.

Oya's voice became tender "Yes. He is your cub now Estrella. To protect him is your right." her other glowing hand touched your tiny head. Instantly we were connected. Instantly in the astral world, I saw you, my cub. I remember you were unable to still see me. In astral form, your tiny tiny tail wagged as you whimpered. Physically, a searing pain took over my entire body as my dried teats now expanded forcefully with your nourishment, My blood.

But I did not move. I endured. In astral form, I closed the distance between us, laying down when I reached you. Ever so carefully, I curled my body inwards to warm you. I continued curling inwards until with my muzzle. I gently licked your sickly form. It was then the blackness of the constellation faded and I saw you nestled within my form. Just as I had done in the astral world.

I did not want to get up. I was given a cub. Olofi blessed me with a cub of my own to raise. I would know the blessing of motherhood. I remember while licking you; you turned your head up to see me still blind. In the tiniest wolf speak, I heard a word I will never forget. That word gave my soul purpose and strength. You said "Ma..ma"