Everyone remains fixated on me. Especially Robert, who now comes towards me, stopping just in front of me "I don't care about that. My parents. I knew nothing of my parents as.... if.. my memory was erased."
Robert cocks his head while looking to me questioning, lifting one eyebrow. "All I can remember is growing up with Alpha, mima and Don Yonell" His bewildered stares on me suddenly changes. He has figured it out. He knows, he understood why he does not remember and asks "Ma......mama Cary did you??" The weight in his stare forces me to avert his.
Instead, looking to the ground. And respond "Yes Robert. For their sacrifice, and to fulfill my promise to them. I wiped, no I blocked the memory of your parents along with my own cub Randall's of his." The weight of my shame just doubles as Randall's eyes shoot to me.
Stunned, eyes rocketing and frozen on my mother-in-law. For a moment I cannot say a word. But when I do, it is an EXPLOSION
"DO YOU KNOW HOW I FELT GROWING UP!! WHAT I WENT THRU!! NOT KNOWING MY BIRTH PACK OR FAMILY!! THE HELL YOU PUT ME THRU!!!"
Before the eyes of my children for the first time, I do something I have NEVER DONE. I sulk. My head remains away downwards, into my shoulders beneath Robert's accusations.
I cannot face the one who accuses me with all the rights of what I have done as a guardian......when as a mother; I took the memories of his.
He bellows "My isolation and pain of not having my parents love or guidance. Of not being able to remember their faces, what it felt like to live with a hole within my heart! The MIND SPLITTING HEADACHES OF NOT KNOWING! OR HOW I WOULD MEET VISITING WER'S TO WONDER IF THERE WERE ME PARENTS!
THE NIGHTS I COULD NOT SLEEP, WONDERING WHY MY PARENTS GAVE ME UP?! DO YOU!? COUNTLESS TIMES I WATCHED REUBEN WITH DON YONELL AS THEY WENT HUNTING, SHARING A SPECIAL BOND I WILL NEVER EXPERIENCE. THE WAY I FELT BEING TORMENTED BY OTHER CUBS CALLING ME ORPHAN, PITY CASE, PIECE OF SHIT!! BEING TOLD MY PARENTS ABANDONED ME BECAUSE I WAS WORTHLESS, GARBAGE!! THE TIME ROSA AND DON YONELL WOULD CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY AND MY WISH... MY ONLY WISH WAS TO BE THEIR CUB. THEIR BIRTH CUB. To.... to know the love of a mother...A father..... Someone i could call Mami.... Papi..... And know...... I am loved like a son." All this and more I allow Robert to rain on me for one reason......It was by my action an innocent cub will never see his parents again.
But it is when Robert takes a single step in my direction. A warning growl, like a beast about to go berserk like no other causes all to stop and turn his way...Our Luna. As he speaks we all recognize he is trying to control himself.
"Robert. I more than anyone here. Know what it is like to live with your mind erased" Alejandro's eyes look to me as they radiate silver. Sable also was not happy "It is anguish like no one can imagine. It is a box of solitude no one can open. It is to walk in the dark never finding the light. I cannot imagine what it was growing up always feeling this way.
But I can tell you what it was like for fourteen years to feel alone. Not able to connect with anyone. To be a misfit amongst your own kind. To not connect.
See others happy and feel a piece of you is missing. Being envious of their happiness. I know those feelings and no one who has not been there can relate. But know this ROBERT, while I can sympathize with you and I am sorry that happened to you. The-wulf you just stepped towards is no outside she-wulf. SHE, is MY MOTHER.... Don't. "
All heed my son's hidden threat. He turns his gaze from me to Reuben. Alpha looks at his mate and places his arm around him. His illuminated forest green orbs lift to me, tucking Alejandro towards him as he does so.
"I understand all Estrella. I know why. Mother has already informed me. Convince them, my mentor. Show them what you have always held first. Even above your oath. Before you cannot."
I bow, closing my eyes to my Alpha for a moment. Lifting my head, I meet his gaze "YES. YES. MY ALPHA." Somehow turning my head away, I found the strength to look to Robert's mate, my son Randall. And at that moment, for what I see reflecting; I wish I hadn't
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Sinister Obsession
Lupi mannari"Pain is not unfamiliar to US." My body slightly recoils from the memories. Estrella replies "The wheels of fate turn. Bringing to light, the secrets of their past my sister. THEY must be ready Cary" My response to Estrella comes with confidence...
