Vindicated

T•E•N

I didn't go to sleep after Jay left. I tried to get some sleep, but I just tossed and turned all night. l even took a shower in the middle of the night thinking that it would help me, but it only made me be less sleepy.

The kiss just kept replaying in my head like a broken record. No matter what I did to forget about the kiss, I just couldn't shake it off. The way it felt and how I didn't stop him. I let it happen. Stupid! Stupid!

This isn't fair to Luke. I felt like calling him, but it was 3 o'clock in the morning. I didn't even know what I am going to tell him. I can't just call and say "hey, a guy kissed me and I kissed him back. The bad part is that I liked it." I will tell him one way or another. He deserves to know even if he is my fake boyfriend or not.

At first when Lisa said that I need to date Luke as a cover up, I went along with it because I did like Luke. His been my best friend for a long time and well, I had a crush on him. Though I didn't know how to make him like me back. Lisa suggested to ask him to be my boyfriend. I was against it for a while, then I did ask him and well he said yes to my surprise. I've been dating him for a year now.

The feeling of liking him faded after 3 months of dating him. I couldn't break up with him due to Lisa. It always seemed strange to me that Lisa only had me dated someone. No one else seemed to date to cover up that they were a spy. I was the only one because I was well known by the everyone, but Will was also known. His a nerd who became a spy. Will used to dress like a nerd than all of the sudden his wardrobe changed.

He changed and no one thought it was suspicious at all. I would think he started selling drugs or something. He does wear a lot of black now and even got a few tattoos.

I reached for the remote control pressing a button to turn on the television. I flick through channels trying to find something interesting, but I don't. I settle for reruns of The Big Bang Theory. Just for that time being I forgot what happened a few hours ago.

The digital clock on my wall marks 7 o'clock and I dial Marcus's number.

"Hello." He says sleepily. I must have woken him, but I don't really care.

"Change the date." I simply say.

"Dawn?" I hear him yawn before saying my name.

"Yes it's me. I want you to change the date." I say again but more demanding. I don't want to see Jay just yet.

"What are you doing up this early?" He tries to change the subject. I grip my phone tighter.

"Nevermine that. I want you to change the date of your capture and rescue mission." I try to say calmly but fail. He signs and doesn't talk for a minute.

"Okay. I'm only saying yes because I have other stuff to do before we do this mission. Monday. I'll change it to Monday." That gives me six days. Six days to figure out what to do.

"Can you tell Jay, please."

"Yeah sure. Is there something wrong?" He asks a bit worried.

"No, I just don't feel to well that's all." I lie. I hear him yawn again.

"Well I'm going back to sleep. Feel better, Dawn." With that he ends the call and I relax a bit. I lay back down on my bed looking up at the ceiling.

I hear knocking at my door. A million possibilities on who could that be go through my head. I somewhat wish it's not Jay. I still don't know what to do about him.

The knocking continues and I finally get up putting on some decent cloth and shoes.

I don't bother to look through the hole to see who it is.