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everything feels blurry. i don't know what to do with myself anymore. grayson and i breaking up has been the hardest pill to swallow ever. it's been 2 months. i know i need to move on. i cant sit here waiting for something that will never happen again
i'm forcing myself to go on a date tonight. he's really attractive, nice, and caring. but i'm not attracted to him. i'm not attracted to anyone except for grayson. it sucks so much because i want to move on and i know i have to. but i can't
i curl my hair and put on a black dress with black heels. i wait downstairs for my date to show up
he takes me to a really nice restaurant where we sit down and talk. if i'm being honest, talking to him is great. i just can't connect with anyone else. we eat and then we get into his car so he can bring me home
he puts his hand on my thigh and looks at me and smirks. grayson used to do this to me. it makes me feel so disgusted that another guy is touching me the way grayson used to
he drops me off at my house, and brings me to my door. he leans in and kisses me. i kiss back. thinking that will help me get over grayson. his lips just left so strange and unusual i had to pull away
"sorry, i just wasn't feeling it," i said looking down
respectfully he said, "it's okay. thanks for letting me take you out anyway"
he leaves at i go up to my room
i was contemplating texting grayson or not
and i grabbed my phone and shot him a text
me: i know we haven't talked in a while. but i miss you grayson. so much. i don't expect you to text me back. but i just can't seem to move on from you
a/n: part two? i promise i'll be more active
