Inside Out...

4:No honey.....I'm not crazy. Just hungry.

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By Saturday evening I've been discharged from the hospital and am planning a sleepover with my 22 year old friends.....nothing weird about that.I smile to myself.

"Its a date E.,...but don't expect me and Caleb to not share a room"

I read from Leah and shake my head

"Looks like everyone is getting laid tonight but me."  I say to my cousin who is staring at his phone screen with those lovesick eyes.Leah.

" Most likely." He says. Loneliness sucks. Especially when you're in a group like mine where everyone's got someone. I'm the freakin' fifth wheel here!...but I really don't mind, if it's for me, then it'll happen.

"Well I'll be making out with my ice cream and pizza thank you very much." I say opening the fridge, and it dawns on me that we have no ice cream left in this house, Leah's special stash of chocolate is finished, and there are no.popsicles.left. Nooooo!!!

"Caleb....when was the last time we went grocery shopping?" I yell so he can hear me from the living room which is a bit far.

"Last month?" He says back unsurely and appears in the kitchen soon after.

"That's not good." He says when he gets a glimpse of what our refrigerator looks like.

"God Caleb!" I say,walking back to the living room and up the stairs to Caleb and I's bedrooms to change."I'm going grocery shopping. "I tell him as I head for my room.

I change into grey adidas sweatpants and a baggy white cotton top. I hardly ever get time to dress so casually during the week.

I put my hair up into a bun and grab my keys. I also hardly get the time to drive myself around. I remember,as I make my way downstairs and to the garage,where my black Audi is parked beside Caleb's grey Mercedes .In a few minutes,I'm on the road,heading for the nearest Wall Mart which is 20 minutes away.

While in the car I put my disc into the CD player,which swallows it up. While it's loading, my mind wanders to what Caleb was telling me earlier. The unbelievable truth.

Aiden helped me. The guy who asked me if I had raisins for eyes just a few days ago helped save me. Uggh! Now I have to thank him.....This guy is getting way too much outta me!, but still. He could've decided to walk away from the situation... but he didn't. He stayed,and more so,he payed the expenses knowing fully well that I could do that myself.

I might be a bitch on many levels, seeing as that was how I was....trained ,but I know that thanking him would be the right thing....uggh! But that would be admitting defeat! Says the savage in me .I shake my head to clear those kinds of thoughts.That was who you were...This is who you are E.

Besides, he'll probably just gloat in my face about it till the day I die. But I want an explanation, and an apology. And after that....who knows? Maybe Aiden and I can be...friends???

I pull up at the Wall Mart parking lot,get out and lock my car.I walk into the supermarket smiling as I remember the last time we all came here.....We almost got banned for life.

I get a shopping cart, and start picking up things I know we need, making sure to get a variety of chocolates for Leah, a pack of marshmallows for Tess, a few cokes for Dave, and maybe a few hundred popsicles in different flavours. Don't judge me.