Life As We Know It

Chapter 1.

Chapter 1:

I looked at myself at the mirror. And all I see is, probably the ugliest thing I've ever seen in my entire pathetic life. A girl staring at me. I looked through her eyes. Her brown orbs, full of sadness and fear but after a second it turned cold and emotionless. I looked at her hair. Black. Toussled everywhere. Making it seem that a bird can live on it and lay eggs. It ended at about the sleeve of the shirt that she's wearing. It doesn't even suit her. In fact it looked hideous. An oversized black T-shirt doesn't hide the fat she's trying to cover. I can see it peeping at the hem of the baggy thing.

I backed away from the mirror. Two meters away and I can see her whole figure. She was so fat for my liking. She has no curves at all. Her thighs even touch. I looked at her from head to toe. No. I looked at myself from head to toe. Never once I saw a single thing that looks good on her. She's a perfect masterpiece for the most ugliest thing ever. Ever.

I can't help but let the hot tears left my cold eyes. No. I don't want to see myself crying. I don't want to see myself be weak. I already am.

Yes. Keep crying darling. You deserve it. Its makes us very pleased.

I dropped to the floor, lying on my side. I bent my knees and bury my face in them trying to keep my sobs as quiet as possible. I'm so glad I have a bathroom all to myself.

I just realized the mystery girl I saw from the mirror. . . . was me.

Go. Grab it. Its on the top shelf of your medicine cabinet.

No. Please. No. No. No. No. No. No. Not right now please!

Grab it!!!!!!

My thoughts were interrupted from the sound of my phone ringing ever so loudly outside the door. I got up slowly and wiped my tear stained cheeks. I went out and soon as I picked up my phone, it went to voicemail.

Hi this is Tori. I can't answer my phone right now because I'm probably busy. So please just leave a message after the beep. . . . . . . . . . . . Beeeeep!

My recorded voice echoed through my phone as it went to voicemail.

Hi Tori! This is Chris! Your Bestfriend? I'm trying to reach you for days. You haven't responded to my texts and calls. What's up? Hope your okay. We'll meet you at lunch today? See you. Bye!

It was Chris. I knew it was him. The only bestfriend I have that actually understands me. But he doesn't even know my condition right now.

I turned to my wristwatch, ‘7:30’ it red. Great. I should probably go to school right now or else I'll get another detention for being late.

I changed my current clothes, which was my blue p.j's and T-shirt, into my skinny jeans and black V-neck long sleeved shirt. I wore my ankle boots then grabbed my backpack to start my day at school.

I was a senior at James Collin University. ( Not really a real place ) I'm mastering a teachers degree. I've always wanted to be one. The one that called me earlier was my bestfriend since highschool. Chris. He's 19 like me. And we both wanted to be a teacher that's why we became very close. Although I was ignoring him for the past weeks. I don't know why but someone told me that.

And by someone I mean ‘the demons’ that's inside my brain. Let's just call them. They or Them.

I took a bus to school and it was a 25 minute ride from where I live. I sat on an empty seat by the window staring blankly at nothing in particular.

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How's chapter 1? I hope I'm doing good and not exaggerating a bit. I dunno. But please know that I'm writing straight from my heart. Take care lovies! Dont forget your beautiful! xx

~Cupcake**